I was lonely. Every day I was walking down to that bridge, down that street. I thought that no one is looking at me. But one day he shows himself to me. I saw him and he saved my life.  

Why hadn't chanyeol noticed all the signs? The signs of his lover pulling away?

It was easy at first, to pretend that everything was okay. He had to pretend. He didn’t want to make everyone worry, yes, but the main reason was because he didn’t want to lose Yoongi as a best friend. He just … if he had to pretend for his whole life that he didn’t have feelings for Yoongi so that they could continue to be best friends, then dammit, he would. He would do whatever it took. Caught in a lie, Find me when I was pure, I can't be free from this lie, Give me back my smi