aesol/monster.co.kr

(trigger warning: minor descriptions of plastic surgery, brief mentions of drug abuse, parental death.)
 
 
 
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SHIM AESOL
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❝ I'm a machine, An emotional being; Since I was a teen Cut my feelings off clean, clean. ❞
WhoAmI?
FULL NAME 심애솔, shim aesol.
NICKNAMES
❃ sola this was the stagename she chose for honey belle, and the one she still uses to this day. she chose it because it uses the sol from her name, but she also believed it meant sun. it some cases it does, but the first meaning is she who walks alone.

❃ scary unnie, mini maestro these are new nicknames she picks up on produce angel. scary unnie is from the other younger contestants that may be intimidated by her, mini maestro is from any netizens that become a fan of hers for her songwriting abilities. 
 
PRONOUNS she/her.
UALITY bicurious more like bifurious.
 
DATE OF BIRTH (AGE) november 12th, 1998 23.
BIRTHPLACE yongsan-gu, seoul, south korea.
HOMETOWN gangnam-gu, seoul, south korea.
ETHNICITY korean.
NATIONALITY korean.
 
LANGUAGES
❃ korean her native tongue. as she was raised in seoul, she's always spoke with the standard gyeonggi (seoul) dialect.

❃ japanese she's been learning for years, but aesol especially became dedicated when honey belle disbanded. she's fluent reading it and fairly conversational when speaking.
HowDoILook?
FACECLAIM jamie park, soloist.
BACK-UP lee joowon, momoland.
 
APPEARANCE
disclaimer  scroll! i chose jamie park as her faceclaim because she has an edginess that fits my character. everything in this section is completely made up for aesol and is in no way speculation on any surgeries jamie may or may not have had done as that is entirely her business!
with her mother's financial support, aesol has had numerous plastic surgery procedures over the years. as mentioned in the background, she had a double eyelid surgery in 2014. after joining full moon entertainment, she had an alarplasty (a procedure that removes the excess skin and tissues from the nostrils and narrows the nose) before debut in 2016. she wanted to get a majority of her procedure wishlist done before she made her debut but there just wasn't enough time; after promotions for dark circle wrapped up, aesol got a rhinoplasty in 2018 (a procedure that changes the shape of the nose) that unfortunately was a bit botched- the surgeon went a bit overboard and the change in her nose was very drastic, she had some trouble breathing as well.

also in 2018 is where she got an
epicanthoplasty (a procedure that aims to lengthen the inner parts of the eye to make the eye bigger, using small incisions), fillers to her lips & lip corners as well as her chin. and finally for 2018 she got a set of veneers. needless to say, aesol looked quite different when mi amor came out. in 2020 aesol got another rhinoplasty to fix the first one, thankfully it was a success. she also dabbled more with fillers, touching up her lip & chin ones and adding cheek fillers to the mix, in which she upkeeps to this day.

she's got a few tattoos, mostly because she liked the way they looked and not because of any significant meanings. most notably is her
sun and moon tattoo (seen pictured) that actually holds some significance to aesol, not that she'd ever admit what it was; if asked she'll just say she liked the way it looked, but the real reason is that she sees herself as the sun, burning bright and hot, while ryuyi is the soft delicate moon. aesol keeps her nails long and coffin-shaped, usually decorated with dark paint colors. for makeup, aesol prefers dark eyeshadows and lip colors paired with graphic eyeliners and false lashes. height 157 cm.
 
FASHION
for the longest time aesol believed she had to dress the most trendy yet "normal" way to be successful. over time though, she realized in the music business at least, someone can dress "weird" as long as they have a pretty face still. this revelation was good for aesol as she's always been attracted to more edgier, alternative fashion which is what she indulges herself in now. she tends to save her best fits for when's doing something important, and on a more day to day basis her style is what she herself deemed "leisure e-girl", still edgy but more comfortable. she loves jewelry, particularly black and silver ones and wears quite a few necklaces, bracelets & rings basically everyday. for footwear, she loves sneakers & boots, especially stomper boots and platforms. 
 
   
   
   
BehindThatSmile
#scorpio sun #virgo moon #capricorn rising #slytherin #infj #3w4

intense, protective, perceptive, restless, self-indulgent, hard-working, humorous, versatile, witty, ambitious, mysterious, conciliatory, vain, contemptuous, perfectionist.
 
ELABORATION
shim aesol surmises that there are two sides to her; the girl of her youth who was so excited about music before her mother would insist that success is everything, before she put such a huge value on her appearance and the appearances of others. this is aesol; and then there is sola. a girl who wants to shine so that bright that she burns whomever is in her way, a girl that doesn't allow herself to feel emotions too deeply as that can only be a hindrance. 

sola is mysterious; because of her lack of facial expressions and her ambition clouding her need to be social, it takes awhile for her to open up and for anyone to get close to her. mistakes aren't allowed in sola's world, she's too much of a perfectionist and will work herself tirelessly to prevent any mistakes in the first place or correct any that occurred; you'll never get her to admit if she did make a mistake. making music is her lifeforce, and she doesn't allow any room to create something that she may be ashamed of later.

in fact, all sola really knows is working hard. when she's not working she feels restless, aimless. boredom is one of her worst enemies and just leads to time being wasted. if she truly needs a break from work or some rest, she'll still end up doing something, even if it's reading a book. she does treat herself though, sola does acknowledge the fruits of her labor and takes full advantage of the money she has, spoiling herself with clothes, food & other material possessions, because she's worked so hard to earn it so why not? sola tends to be self-indulgent in many aspects, not just with purchases; with the exception of ryuyi and her family, sola only looks out for herself.

because sola doesn't allow herself to feel, a lot of the time her emotions tend to be heightened when she does let them out. this is why her protectiveness tends to come off as suffocating to those it's directed towards, why her anger and resting face got her dubbed as the "scary unnie" of produce angel. sola is just overall an intense person. sola tends to have a contemptuous view of the people around her; unless they've done something to gain her approval, sola will look at them with disdain; especially if their visuals aren't up to her standard. after all, she put in the hard work to look beautiful, shouldn't they? surgery isn't that expensive anymore, there's no excuse.

sola is really good at reading the room she's in; she's versatile and can adapt to any situation if necessary, though she usually prefers to watch in the shadows. however, if her stepping up would look good to someone important, she'll do it no problem. she's conciliatory in the sense that, she won't fight you or argue with you if you don't do what she says; she'll follow you to gain your approval, but you better make it worth her while. 

if any are able to gain her approval and make it into her tight-nit web, perhaps they will meet aesol. a music lover that is just obsessed with the way writing a song makes her feel, a girl who can crack a joke and be witty because there's a sense of humor in her that was born from a lack of nurturing in her childhood. at the end of the day, sola is still just a young girl fighting for her mother's approval because that is all she's ever known, even though inside aesol is just begging for sola to realize that her own happiness is enough. 
DigDeeper
shim aesol wonders if being in the entertainment industry is in her blood; after all, her father shim mingyu was a rising trot singer in the 90's, well on his way to becoming a household name. then he discovered - and like that, aesol wonders if failing in the entertainment industry is in her blood too. kim dakyung, a background dancer for mingyu whom became impregnated by him, left when mingyu's career crashed and burned.

aesol was two when her father died, presumably from something drug related as he only continued to spiral downwards but her mother never told her the full story and mingyu was more than irrelevant by then and no one reported on it. it's a death that she doesn't remember, it doesn't haunt her as much as it would if she had been a bit older; however, a part of her always wanted to meet her dad. she would love to talk music with him and show him the songs she wrote.


the death of her lover only inspired dakyung to do better for herself, she attended college when aesol was still very young and eventually through a lot of hard work and moving up positions became a successful financial manager for a car company. naturally she was busy most of the time and started to stray farther away from aesol when the young girl finally became old enough to take care of herself.

maybe dakyung meant well, because of her upbringing she only wanted what was best for aesol, but the woman would constantly instill in aesol that being successful is the most important thing. unfortunately, this only caused aesol to not feel good enough for her mother. she wants her approval so badly, but never found passion in business like her mom did; she got into music after learning about her father, and the older aesol got, the more she wanted to prove to her mom that she can be successful in music.


dakyung allowed aesol to start taking vocal lessons when she was 12. it grew to piano lessons, joining the music club, discovering hiphop and wanting to learn how to rap, being fascinated by making music as a whole and downloading programs onto her computer so she could start learning how to compose, basically swimming in all things music. while initially getting into music so she can feel close to her dad, aesol began to realize she loved it for herself. making a song 100% by yourself was such a hard but rewarding thing, it felt so magical. by the time aesol was 16 she was juggling all of these things and barely making time for her studies, but she was thriving regardless and she really felt like this was something she could do for the rest of her life. 

there was only one problem; her appearance. if you would ask anyone, they would say aesol was a pretty girl. however, she spent a lot of the time that she wasn't making music studying the newest trends, and eventually she would fall into the world of idol music. she figured being an idol was a stepping stone she could use to become even greater, but aesol noticed these idols looked like gods & goddesses. for the first time, aesol felt insecure. she never really cared if her classmates found her pretty, she didn't concern herself with "looking beautiful" as it just wasn't really important to her; but if her appearance messed with her chances of success? that couldn't do. 

unfortunately for aesol, dakyung only allowed her daughter to get double eyelid surgery as she was still in high school. dakyung herself isn't stupid, she too knows how important appearance is when it comes to determining your success in korea, she offered to help her daughter with any additional surgeries after she graduates. once again, she meant well, but dakyung only planted the seeds that aesol would eventually take advantage of later. even with just a double eyelid surgery aesol still felt confident about all of her abilities (vocal, rap, piano, composing) that she thought that she would surely be a shoe in for any entertainment company.

begrudgingly dakyung allowed her to audition for jyp, woollim & cube entertainment; much to aesol's disbelief she was rejected by all of them.
they would be lucky to have someone as talented as me. aesol was only going for bigger companies because that is what she felt she deserved; eventually she relented and tried out for a smaller company and found herself being accepted by a nugu company known as full moon entertainment in 2014. while certainly not ideal, shim aesol only considered this the start. full moon is lucky to have her, and she will make sure they know that. 
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TRIVIA
aesol is a huge junji ito fan, of course tomie is great but she also enjoyed the liminal zone.
 
aesol doesn't use social media too often. the comments she gets tend to bother her, especially on pictures where she facetunes her features a lot.
 
❃ aesol can write songs for a lot of different genres, of course she has a couple of favorites though such as rnb and alternative.

❃ with the exception of the botched rhinoplasty, aesol doesn't regret any of her procedures and she doesn't agree with the backlash that she got.
 
❃ one of her goals is to write a song with japanese lyrics, and eventually she would like to work on an anime opening & end credits.
 
❃ rapid fire favs! favorite song genesis — grimes. favorite artists grimes, billie eilish & woodz. favorite movie perfect blue. favorite colors black & magenta.
 
LIKES
sunflowers, thriller movies, animation, iced coffees, alternative music, makeup, ramen.
 
DISLIKES
hot weather, beef, awkward situations, sour tastes, sports, exercise, cigarettes.
 
HABITS
checking her appearance on every reflective surface, staying up too late, her left eye twitches (not for any reason, though it does happen more when she's agitated), biting her nails, having mismatched socks (you usually can't see them anyway).
 
HOBBIES
drawing, painting, songwriting, reading (books & manhwa), shopping.
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NAM RYUYI hover!
i hate nam ryuyi. i love nam ryuyi. i want to be nam ryuyi. these are phases that aesol goes through when it comes to her best friend. thankfully recently it's more love, but sometimes when aesol is feeling low she tends to look at ryuyi bitterly. sometimes aesol can't help but think that ryuyi gets things in life too easily, that she was born pretty and charismatic so therefore everyone bends to her will. it's not fair. but then ryuyi looks at aesol with that smile, excitedly explaining what the nine of pentacles tarot card means, and she wonders how she could ever think negatively of ryuyi. she tends to be protective of her because she ryuyi is just so special to her, not realizing that she can go a bit overboard. a small part of her wants to acknowledge that she is basically is in love with ryuyi, devastatingly so, but she knows that wouldn't end well for her so that will continue to be pushed down and ignored. however, in aesol's dark world, ryuyi is the only thing that provided her light and she will always be thankful for that.
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SHIN SIWON
surprisingly there is someone that gained aesol's approval, she admires siwon and the way she isn't afraid to stand up for what she believes in. add that to her lovable personality, and the fact that siwon doesn't seem put off when aesol doesn't reciprocate her approaches at first, i could picture these two being friends. perhaps befriending siwon will open the door for aesol to do some soul-searching about her own uality and perhaps come to terms with it.
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LEE SOMIN
at first sight, aesol didn't think much of somin- just another gorgeous girl that will probably thrive in this industry because of her looks. if the two start talking and get closer though, aesol just may realize that they have more in common than aesol otherwise thought.
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SONG SUMIN
if there is someone that aesol would like to be mentored by, it's sumin. because of her background she feels like sumin will be able to relate to her and will be able to properly give her advice on how to rise from the ashes like a phoenix. she has a lot of admiration for sumin and is a fan of her as well, but aesol's goal is to be even bigger than her.
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CHARACTER NAME
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CONNECTION TO THE KPOP INDUSTRY 
❃ 2017 — 2019 former member of full moon entertainment's k-pop girl duo honey belle.
❃ 2020 — present debuted as solo artist in 2020, mainly focused on songwriting for other artists.
 
PLOTLINE  monster.
TALENT TWIN 한은지, everglow.
BACKUP 최유정, weki meki. or jamie park, soloist. 
 
TRAINEE YEARS  2014 — 2017, 3 years.
TRAINEE EXPERIENCE 
aesol was the favorite of the coaches during her time as a trainee. the young girl didn't cause any trouble, didn't like talking much and just did what she was told, a teacher's dream. admittedly her dance teacher had a harder time, aesol is the type that struggles to find a rhythm but she always tried her best, something her teacher couldn't fault her for. eventually she was able to follow the choreo that was given to her, but she was still very stiff and didn't really make the dance her own, plus she struggled with balancing facial expressions and just looked angry the whole time.

thankfully rap and vocal lessons were a breeze, both of those were already locked down before she even became a trainee and it only got better afterwards. very rarely was someone able to be both a main vocal and rapper, and the ceo knew aesol was a rare gem despite her faults and wanted to debut her. once she got the news, she immediately called her mother, to rub it in a little and to also request money for the alarplasty that was the first on aesol's plastic surgery wishlist.

after aesol had become a trainee her mother had met someone new, a kind man that owned a bookstore. he (lee gongmin) was nice enough, actually encouraged dakyung to be more supportive of aesol's dreams but he was also quite critical of her willingness to fund aesol's surgeries so, needless to say aesol didn't really like him. dakyung still gave aesol the funds and full moon was all too supportive of her surgery, so it went underway.

eventually aesol was introduced to her future duo-mate, nam ryuyi. aesol was well aware of ryuyi- a pretty girl who got handed a spot in this company for no other reason than her looks. she thought of ryuyi bitterly until the two were forced to spend time together to prepare for their debut, and got to know the real her. aesol didn't realize just how lonely she was until she saw how wonderful ryuyi is; she quickly became aesol's only friend and the only light of her life.

aesol wanted to die in embarrassment whenever the younger girl would start dancing along to a song and would take aesol's hands and try and get her to dance along too, but she would never admit that it also made her warm on the inside. aesol didn't like the friends ryuyi hung out with and would let her know quite harshly, resulting in ryuyi walking away because she didn't wanna fight. regardless of it all, these two became honey belle and debuted on april 13th, 2017.
 
ELABORATION
care to travel back to 2017?
Let'sHearFromYou?
THE INTERVIEW 
 
IF YOU WERE A MEMBER OF A K-POP GROUP, WHAT WOULD YOUR POSITION BE? "i could easily be the main vocalist and the main rapper, if not the main rapper i could perhaps settle for lead." 
 
OUT OF 10 HOW TALENTED WOULD YOU CONSIDER YOURSELF? "hm, i can confidently say 8 or 9. not only can i sing and rap, but i could also write and compose the entire album for my group, so. that should score me some bonus points." aesol doesn't mention dance at all because she hates talking about her weak points. if we include her dancing, it may bump her down to a 7. however if her songwriting does grant her bonus points, an 8 or 9 is pretty accurate.
 
WHY DO YOU WANT TO BE A KPOP IDOL? "i've always admired idols, and of course as i'm sure you can tell i live and breathe music. it seems the perfect fit for me." aesol is doing some posturing here, her main goal is to rise above the k-pop label and become a top soloist, becoming a successful idol is just her stepping-stone to get there.
 
DO YOU HAVE GOOD STAGE PRESENCE AND CHARISMA? WHAT ABOUT STAR QUALITY? "girl crush or more serious concepts is ideal for me when it comes to stage presence. as far as star quality goes, i can handle myself in interviews and the like." once again aesol is trying to shift the conversation about her weak points, it's true her stage presence is decent for certain concepts, but any concept outside her comfort zone she will struggle in. aesol does do okay with interviews and shows but her expressionless face comes across a bit unlikable.
 
WOULD YOU CONSIDER YOURSELF A TEAM PLAYER? "ah, sure. i do prefer to work on my own, but i can adapt." aesol is versatile and will make do with any situation, but a team with her may struggle a bit. especially if the whole team is intimidated by her. she'll only follow people that gain her approval and make her believe that following their lead will get her the win.
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❝ A velvet glove around an iron fist, If you wanna survive, then ignorance is bliss. ❞
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COMMENTS
here is my little angsty sunflower! i realize that aesol is kinda a lot so do let me know if there is anything i should change. i hope you don't mind but, i kinda shifted a few things around in the idol section just so it would flow a bit more cohesively. also, i'm notoriously bad at talent twins always but i especially struggled with both of my girlies here, aesol is supposed to be a great vocalist and a good rapper but not the best dancer, and i really couldn't think of anyone that fits that. the closest is mia, whom is a main dancer so it's definitely not a perfect fit. if you have any better recommendations, i'll happily change it! i'm so excited to finally turn this in, i'll happily be anticipating produce angel!
 
SCENE SUGGESTIONS
after produce angel premieres, some internet sleuth digs up that shim aesol is the daughter of shim mingyu, disgraced & deceased trot singer. knowing k-netizens, the news does not bode well...

i will add more as i think of them!
 
PASSWORD emotional machine — marina.  i imagine her singing this to herself instead of a lover and it makes me emo.

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