Its been 2 years since I first watched my first kpop music video. Kpop was first introduced to by my three friends who kept talking about it in class. I was curious so I asked what is the group name. I searched them in the net in the same day and I didn't liked them. I thought they all look a like, they looked like girls and wtf are they wearing and what's up with their hair?! After a few weeks or months (I don't exactly remember) I watched another kpop mv from the same group. And I liked it. That was the time I've fall in love with EXO's Kai. He wasn't my first favorite but he has this charms that I can't explain.

Since then I kept searching for new boy groups, girl groups, music videos, funny clips, facts and shippings that lead me to reading fanfictions. I also watched a few k-dramas where I picked up the habit of saying "Omo", "Aish" "Pabo" and my favorite "YAH". I embarrassingly do "aegyo" (I wouldn't call it that way..ugh) in front of the mirror or to my sister to annoy her. I call some people "unnie" and my crushes "oppa". I even force my sister to call me unnie but she wouldn't do it (*sigh*). My ideal type changed too, from handsome western blondes to cute and manly oppas. 

I guess the biggest thing that changed is my perception beauty. I was always insecure and doubtful even if I don't really show it to the people around me. After knowing the existence of kpop girl groups and internet ulzzangs, I always wonder how the hell do kpop girl groups manage to be fit, have long legs, flawless skin, fabulous hair and their amazing wardrobe. They always look pretty and cute. I was jealous. But after having the lesson about BMI, searching about their height and weight and more searching about their diet, I found out that most of them are under-weight, have an impossible-starving diet and really short-short wardrobe. I loved them for their looks, personality and talent but my admiration has lessen now.  Not just girl groups suffer from this but other boy groups too. Have you seen how EXO's Chanyeol? His really thin now compare the Growl era. I am worried about their health. 

I still listen to kpop of course but it doesn't effect me that much anymore. I have my own problems and life. This is all my opinion. Pyong~