"Why did you decided to make a comeback to writing snsd facfics again?"

One of the questions i got when i logged into AFF today...

Why?

Why did i decided to write again?

And why SNSD?

Honestly i totally forgot about AFF ever since the last chapter in my one-shots collections and i thought to myself i couldn't write anymore cause my writing was bad. I had done a couples of stories ready to update for my readers back then, saved on my computer, but it crashed and i had to buy a new comp, meaning i lost all of my stories in one go...(remember i died back then lol)
I lost my motivation to continue and couldn't find any inspiration no matter how hard i tried. And with exams coming and go, including me getting a job, the time just flew and without noticed i kinda "drifted" away from the Kpop and the whole thing...

But Kpop never died from my heart!

2years past and the next thing i knew when i "came back" to Kpop was the whole thing had changed, new debut groups like GOT7, Red Velvet, WINNER and many more. Group member going solos, acting in drama/movie, variety shows, whos dating whos blah blah blah and so on~
I sat dumbfold in front of my computer and was like "wow..." and little by little i started to catch up with each of my favorite groups, especially my queens "Girls Generation" aka "SNSD", and ofcourse my forever one and only ice prinsess "Jessica" (Oh yes, she's still the same haha) Finally i was back to the mad kpop loving person i was.

 

For me, SNSD was the first Kpop group that i really like love. Back in 2007, when they released their first song "Into the New World", that was the song that opened up the Kpop world for me, even tho i didn't understand a single word of what they were saying (lol) One girl practically stood out and caught my attention right away and she was none other than Jessica. It was something in her that caught my eyes more than the rest of the group. From there on i kept following the groups activities, watching their shows and one year later in 2008, the girls came and performed at a concert(kpop concert) in my home country and hell yeah i was there to see the 9 princess shine IN REAL LIFE. (memories for life)

Then suddenly the ultimate bomb was dropped onto the kpop industry, revealing that "Jessica is no longer a Girls Generation member"... Hundred of thousands of people was shocked! Specially SONEs and escesially SONEs with JESSICA as main bias like myself. I had a super mixed of emotional when i heard about it, i was shock, sad, furious, mad, angry, dumbfolded, yes literally every singel emotional a person can feel, right at the same time. (If you a sone with jessica as main bias, you would understand) i couldn't put my feelings into words... "SM is joking right!?" i thought but that thought quickly got washed away when Jessica confirmed it herself. I felt like someone just grabbed my "kpop loving heart" out of my body.  (lol im so overdramatic right?)

Couple of months past since the news, things moved on but i can't still not believe that Jessica is really gone from SNSD. But i bet it is not just me that hasn't move on about this right? I keep hearing people mentioning about this and watching the other 8-members performing without Jessica, even held a concert as 8, is heartbreaking. As if that wasn't enough i came across one video that make me cry my heart out.

"SNSD - Into The New World (Ballad Ver.)" 

Do i need to say more...?

As the song came to an end, my tears were falling like a waterfall (my girlfriend think that im crazy lol)

"Why does it have to be like this? "
"What happened to them?"
"Why can't we do something for them?!"

All these thoughts were repeated itself in my mind and suddenly flash-back of the memories when i made these fanfics in AFF came. As quick as the internet allowed me to search up AFF and my username and password, i was back into AFF. All these memories of the past, how happy we all were and how fun it was to write about them and these so-called OTP. After many thought, i decided to start writing again. Even if things is not the same as before, but they will always be the same in my mind and my fanfics. I love Jessica, i love SNSD, and thats the way i want it to be.

"Soshi is love, soshi is life"

xxx