Reading a discussion not too long ago, it had touched on the topic of TVXQ and their heavenly ballads. 
That led me to open up my music player and play my TVXQ Ballad Playlist. Whoa... and boy did it bring me back. 
Back to when these boys were five. I hate how every video I watch now I keep scrutinizing their relationship, to see if there were any faults. Which I shouldn't be doing. 

I watched this one show they went on, Tokyo Friend's Park? It was just... so adorable. And then I'll go on watching their other variety shows. I'll watch live performances. Their perfection...

...of course, it gave me feels.

I wonder if there are still any fics with db5k out there. I have yet to try. I'll try it out after this. 
elisaexplosive writes amazing JaeJoong fics, surely. 
I mean, JaeJoong fics are a bundle. Me and my muse have talks of making one JaeJoong fic with KAI - making them siblings or some sort. 
Insert some family conflict, slice of life, the works. But to even finish it - no, to even start it is such ... a hassle - bak kata kita org Melayu, liat aku rasa nak mula. 
I'm gonna visit this TVXQ writing contest later on to check on the works of the ones partaking. 
I joined earlier on, but then I stopped because I was completely stressed and wasted such a beautiful piece of work/poster made by RoyalKim. 
I'm still saving it for the day I decide to continue it. 

I remember, there was this fic I did, of a db5k fic where they reunited. 
It was called The Rising. Prior, it was called The Return of the Kings. 
I deleted it because it took so long to write out. I was so slow. 
I felt so bad for those reading it, bookmarking it and subscribing to it. 
I don't even know if I was going with the right direction with it. 
I wanted to incorporate the old with the new.

I rewrote the original which was a story about a freelance female dancer who encountered her idols. 
I still think it's the best plot ever... compared to this family stuff I've come to replace it with. 
I don't know what came over me. Plus, I don't think I even executed the whole family genre well. 
It seemed more focus on, the younger generation more so the older generation. 
I couldn't see, what was my goal. What was my lesson? The moral? The purpose? 
Okay... I've gone and delved too deep into the matter. 
I'm just wondering right now if I should re-upload the fic - because of my sudden recurring feels. 

I'll try... 

p.s. beautiful pic is not mine.