I'm not angry at GD nor Kiko because I know it's not their fault they fell in love, it's not on their hand on what the future might hold for both of them but I am a bit disappointed. I am disappointed because I think as a fan, GD owe me the thruth. I don't mind if he and Kiko are in a relationship because as where I am standing right now, I don't have the right to pry on their private lives. I don't have the right to be mad just because my "Oppa" is dating someone but I am in the right place to know the truth right? 

I haven't made a post on the whole Jiko thing because, I was so lost and my heart hurt. As you all know, I made a post about me "letting go" of Daragon. I guess, I was able to move on because the damage upon seeing the pictures of GD and Kiko being all touchy didn't struck me as badly as it might have before. Before when I was still playing blind and deaf about the truth. I am or I was a Daragon shipper, but I still bear a itsy bitsy tiny faith in my heart. You know it's hard to quite on something you had devoted nearly 5 years of your life just like that. Although, I know that it's nearly impossible right now, I am still hoping and holding on.

The reason why I suddenly decided to post this is because of a video lurking on insta and twitter. I'm sure Daragon shippers had already seen it, so a short summary of the video : it was in AOMG party where GD had his hands on Dara's head. Anyway, I have a lot of questions that is circulating in my head right now, but there is one that appalled on me instantly "Were they real?". The video was released 1 year after the caption. I don't know about you guys, but I really think they might have been real. I think that there really was something between them before but broke it off and now they are seeing new, significant people in their respective lives.

I have a great sense when it comes to this kind of things. I can immediatelly tell one's emotion through their eyes. GD's eyes and smiles were unmistakable, it was distinctive and that is one of the reasons why I started shipping Daragon in 2009. There was this spark between them back then but the spark slowly passes away in 2012. It felt like they were drifting apart.

I also find it weird that the video was released this year and not only that it was released just a few days after GD and Kiko's scandal came up. I don't want to assume things but I really hope GD isn't using Dara to cover things up because I am a Daraling first before an appler. There is also a picture of Dara with the "Nuthang Crew" (I don't if it's spells like this) for you don't know what it is, it is a crew that Xin and GD made. Anyway, one of the members celebrated his birthday and GD was also there. I don't what to feel nor think anymore.

All I know is that, their happiness comes first. I want both GD and Dara to be happy! I want them to spend their lives with someone they can lean on and someone who can love them endlessly. I just simply wish the best for them.

Daragon will always stay in my heart. I will never say goodby, as I will forever keep the memories preciously.