Thinking about Changing.

Well, I've been thinking about this for months now. It's nothing serious, but it's worth a try. I mean, I wouldn't be in this site forever because I have my own life to live and various priorities to do. At times, with all the feedback I'm getting and the ignoring I'm experiencing, it's time to assume a new identity i guess.

I know it wouldn't have much of a difference, but it's nice to start with a blank page and fill it up with another set of colors and images that would make it special. madchen is a nice username and all the people I've talked to are wonderful, but I'm getting tired of all the ignoring and lack of response (or whatever). I said I write for myself, but it's better to receive other people's opinion about my writing, together with my friends here. They've been really good to talk to and to express my opinions (and thank goodness they understand). I just hope that others will realize that every action has something else to it - no man is an island.

I'm quite a sensitive person even if it's not that noticeable, so a simple thing could make me happy or can encourage me further. It's just disappointing.

For those who don't get what I'm pointing out here, it's about my stories.

In all honestly, I don't care about the numbers beside the subscribers or the votes section. They're just numbers that encourage other people to view my fic whenever they like. And like I said in my old blog, I value opinions more than the new number of subscribers I get. Sure, I treasure every reader I get, but It just makes me sad that others might not appreciate that. What's a minute or a few seconds to drop by and write in that little box? is it that hard?

Authors pour out their time and all their ideas with every chapter, every one shot they make, and receiving not a single comment or just a few considering the huge number of people who actually waited for the fic to update is saddening.

As observed, every author here is given some kind of label depending on the fics they write. Whatever you do, the label given to you is hard to change in a short amount of time, It might not be even possible to change it completely. Lately, I feel like all the things that I'm writing aren't worth my reader's time. 

Before, many people bothered to take a look and drop by, but the lessening numbers is discouraging. Seeing them makes me think: Am I not improving or am I just getting boring?

With that question in mind, I thought that starting over is the best choice I get. I've been waiting for the right time to leave this account and start over. Having a small group of people and actually talking to all of them is better than seeing hundreds of people checking your account and not bothering to talk to you. I don't know if any of you would agree (or if you guys even bothered to read all of my stupid drama), but that's how I've been thinking for the past months.

Almost all of my fics are done (only one chapter for my two chaptered fics), so it's probably time to start over. 

Wonder if I'll get the same treatment if I change my alias this time.

 

On the bright side, I have my own tag XD

Some people have seen it I guess. It's the very tag lol.I'm proud to think about that hahaha

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UKISSKissMe1313 #1
awww... I still love you! <3 Can you send me your new name?
-lover #2
Err...
Sadly I can't say write exactly what I think due to my bad english. But if you feel you want to restart from zero, then go for that. Just try to not be the same and get back to where you are now.
I think that a new account may not bring you more commenters, but since you don't care about that, I think it's ok.
As many of you know, I'm not a writer myself, but I agree that people should comment more on the fics they read. Maybe a simple "thank you for your time", it takes just a few seconds to write.
I wish you good luck, and if you don't mind, please seek me with your new account, I don't want to lose you as a friend and as one of my favorite ficwriters.
Fighting!
Jicandy #3
Do whatever u want to do ^_^
dream_keeper88 #4
Just do what you think is best for you. I never thought of leaving this account but I wondered at times how it would be like if I don't have hundreds of friends and blog subscribers with expectations. There are times when I would delete something I've written in a blog and I berate myself after that. I tell myself that it's my space and I can say anything I want. I can take responsibility. I want to be silly, I want to share a really funny article I've read or a strange discovery I've made. But people's opinions... those who merely follow me because of the updates on the site... stop me most of the time. Would it be worth reading, I would ask myself. And then later, I would realize that it was their choice to press that button, I don't owe anyone anything, and the best I could do for them is be sincere, be true to myself.
yeheteverybody #5
Im deeply sorry for the typos lol silly me
yeheteverybody #6
I get what you mean and i feel you, eventhough I'm not really a writer myself(i have a lot of ideas but never took the effort to properly turn them into a story lol). I want to apologise because I think I might have been one of those people who took authors for granted. I realised only now that I've only commented on stories whose writing I like best(but of course, I like your writing style too *throws hearts*. And yeah, your pen name is very memorable). I see a lot of stories with a good plotline but I dont quite fond of the writing style, and the grammar. Of course, nobody's perfect and who am I to judge when English is not even my first language. As much as I want the author to improve on her or his writing, I dont want to hurt their feelings :( so instead of giving them an honest opinion, I ended up leaving the comment box ignored. mind to share your thoughts on this? (Oh and I wasn't talking about you, honey. Your writing is superb. It's just that when you brought this up, I suddenly thiught about this haha). I think a freah news start sounds nice :) whatever suits you best, I'll be cheering for you <3 (im quite of a silent subscriber because I dont have much time cuz busy with university stuffs so sorry again)
polarlightnoona #7
Unnie, I understand how your feel. It's really hard to change an image once it's already given to you.
But for me, I really like everything you write. Maybe it's unique with other fics but its what makes it special. And also I appreciate every effort you've given in writting every chapters in your story. So all in all. I LERV YOU AND YOUR STORy. your such a nice person, even if I dont know you personally. I feel like your a nice person. :) so what makes you happy, do it. :D
woobuns #8
Aw, I understand. I also had that thoughts at some point while I was just lazing around the site, waiting for an actual feedback about the short stories I have. I also thought of something along the lines of "It's my birthday. It's my gift for myself. I don't really care if somebody reads it." But after a few months and then people actually read my stuff, it's really heart-fattening and the joy? There are no words to describe how happy I was that people actually noticed it. But yeah, seeing that the number of people leaving comments drop like an avalanche, really is heartbreaking. But I'm holding on! Haha. There's nothing wrong with change. It's nice. As long as you do whatever makes you feel better! o u o Wow, I actually commented this long lmao /crawls awei
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