So as I was scrowling through my instagram and I came across a post by grav3yard girl and it was a picture of the Rocky Horror Picture Show MAC collection. 

This is one of my top favorite movies of all time and I love makeup so I was so excited. So normally I would text my friend [who loves makeup more than me] and fangirl I suppose over it. I was about to send the message and then I remembered we don't have a close relatioship anymore even though we would tell each other everything for 5 years. So I just started thinking about how many of my close friendhips have started to diminish because of school, work, and relationships. 

I don't have time to go out often and when I do have time other people don't so I just spend my time at home watching netflix or rewatching all of Quentin Terantino's movies. Like the people I do end up talking to are internet friends and there is nothing wrong with that. I think internet friends are just as valid and as good as friends you know in person. They often are better than people you know in person. 

I wish I was socialble in both person and online but the reality I'm not. I often have a conversation with someone from here through kik and once one of us ends the conversation [as if one of us has to go to sleep or be somewhere] I always feel anxious to start the conversation once again the next day or a week later because I feel like I'm bothering them. I'm the kind of person that just prefers to keep the conversation going even if you stop replying and then reply the next day [if you get what I mean]

I don't know I always feel like people are annoyed by me even though they necessarily aren't it's just what my anxiety leads me to believe. Plus I'm the kind of person to complain about what bugs me instead of bottling up. 

I just want to have a friend or friends that I can talk to about kpop, manga, non-asian stuff that interests me, and just stuff about out daily life. Like message eachother or w.e. whenever we have time. 

I kind of always put this at the end of a chapter update or sometimes blogs:

Feel free to message me. I will always reply as long as you tell me you're from here so I know you're not a creep/spammer. We can talk about random stuff I guess.

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