i don't know

it hasn't sunk in

Jessica, ot9, wtf is going on

the past 5 hours have been a mess

jigeumeun apeurodo yongwonhi......right?

i can't listen to gee, sica starts the goddamn song

i can't go on twitter or tumblr w/o reading about ot9 now being ot8

all i know is that she's leaving but she wants to stay 
and that's the part that kills me 

it kills me that i've never been to a soshi concert and never will

it kills me that i can't go to the SM building to riot
SHE SPENT HALF HER LIFE THERE

it kills me that the members aren't saying anything (hopefully they'll say something soon)

IT KILLS ME THAT I WROTE AN AU ONESHOT ABOUT HER LEAVING BUT FK IT'S NOT AN AU ANYMORE

(it also kills me that no one fking understands why i'm so upset)

she wants to sing and sell sunglasses but can't??

it's RIDICULOUS

SM WHY ARE YOU THREATENED BY SHADES THAT COST $300
THAT'S LIKE THE PRICE OF ONE SMTOWN TICKET

i just can't, everything is so messed up.

i want a hug.

i want Jessica :( 

i want ot9 :(

(i'm listening to kris's time boils the rain and the tears are REAL)