Hello all....

First of all.. I am sooooo sorry for being in hiatus especially after I did the prompt contest and promised to write that asap. So, I am here to tell you guys my side of story..

The week that I announced the winner, the GD birthday event happen, so I wrote this story first: Titled: Ripple ; After I'm done with the story, I was on vacation. Actually I was not went to a relaxing vacation, instead I went to a hiking trip. I climbed mount Kinabalu with a group of people. If you didn't know, mount Kinabalu is the highest mount of South East Asia and proudly said, I reach the summit! The trip was fun and challenging but it also exhausted me so much. At the same time, my parents came to visit me at my place after I returned. So I rarely had time to rest. I also had to go back to work. I can't take leave for too long.. :(

Then, not even having any weekend for resting, I was back for another trip. That was YG family concert in Singapore! We went to Singapore by doing a road trip to save cost. Since the tic was expensive and I already spent a lot on trips this year. It was fun though. The concert was super amazing except that there was no Seungri. TT. The news of his accident happen a day before the concert which was also a day before my trip. I was so worried and upset at the same time. Nevertheless, I enjoyed the concert and never once I forget about the absent of our baby, Seungri.

During the concert, I was holding "V" LEDs sign that I always switched on whenever Bigbang came out. I was pretty sure the members saw my sign and they will convey to Ri on how he was missed. The concert and Bigbang was great as usual but I was tearing up every time Ri's part came out and we only hear MR. They didn't replace his voice and just let it empty. And my heart was hurt.

And only now that I have time to rest but at the same time I also need to go back to work. This weekend will be the first weekend where I can finally truly resting. I was hoping that I could get back my mood on writing since I had been worried and missing Ri constantly since the accident. I could not really calm down and keep checking about his news. I really want to go to Korea and see him. But that could never happen, we all know that. TT

Lastly.. About GRI.. After the concert, I was sure that I am not imagining them anymore. It might be love between brother or love between lovers but I know for sure, GD needs Ri to be happy. He was not in good mood and he barely smile during the talk. He looked uncomfortable singing Crayon alone. I truly believe that Ri is GD's happy pills. He noticed my sign (I believed so) and I felt after that he kind of avoided seeing at my side. Maybe the "V" sign had reminded him to Ri so much? He was overwhelming maybe. Anyway, I was glad that Ri has this effect to him. And I do wish for speed recovery for our baby.

That's all and I am sorry for taking my time especially on writing the prompt fic. I need to rest physically and my heart and mind need to calm down too. Seeing Bigbang performing without Ri really broke my heart. I miss our maknae so much! So so much that I felt like crying. I watched the accident feed so many times to understand it and seeing how bad the car was... I couldn't help but feel upset more. Also them cancelling the fan meeting in China this Saturday and his unconfirmed appearance for YG fam tour this October really adding to my continuous worry. Yes, I want him to rest more too but I want to at least, one thing, anything from him that telling us for sure that he is okay. A tweet or a post on insta.. I am waiting and will always wish him well. I am aware about the bad press/media he got related to the accident which probably was the reason for him to be silent on SNS. I understand it all. And I hope he is surrounded by the people that matter to him and keep him in a good mood and condition.

Lastly.. Please forgive me again for my hiatus.

I love all my readers and please be patient with me.

Jena.