I smile but it feels concious 

Closed eyes but I'm awake

I feel but it's  so shallow

So hollow, it echoes away

I move but it is passive

The movements coloured fake

I must wake up before I've really lost

Before it is to late

It's so surreal to me.

EunBi was pretty important to me. Her departure from our world has had a big impact on my emotion state. Which has me resorting to poetry. 

I miss her. I wish her family privacy and respect. I just wanna wake up and find cool fan taken pics of her or fans cheering at a performance of them or her making smart jokes at variety shows.

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