I'm so deeply sorry

I don’t even know how to say this. I never thought that it would come to this, but unfortunately it has. I’ve lost the will to finish my fanfics. I don’t know where they’re going and I don’t know if I’ll ever complete them. They’re starting to feel like a burden to me and that’s not how I want to write.

I don’t want to feel like I’m straining myself for ideas because that’s not how I write.

I’ve never felt so horrible in my life for not finishing the fanfics, but I honestly feel like I can’t. I’ve lost the way my characters interact with each other and it’s constantly bothering me. I need to start afresh.

I feel like I’ve already moved on from fanfics and Kpop that it’s too difficult to write them anymore. I don’t feel that same excitement over Kai and Sehun in my stories.

I really do hate to leave things unfinished but I can’t keep doing this. It stresses me out thinking about when the last time it was I updated and why my chapters are not what I want them to be. I want to be able to write about original characters and own something that’s completely mine because I can’t do that if I’m writing about Kpop idols.

It might be a while before I start writing again because I have no inspiration whatsoever, right now.

I’m so, so sorry. I feel like I’ve disappointed everyone.

Thank you so much for everything though. I actually feel like I might cry. These past years have been amazing with all my readers and friends. The amount of support I get is beyond this world and I will never forget your kindness and enthusiasm, and probably never experience anything like it again.

I beg you not to try and change my mind because it will only make me feel worse about what I’m doing. I have to do this. I want to move on. 

 

 

I love you all with all my heart

xxx

*throws nam hearts*

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scarlettwolf #1
So, it's been years since I made this comment;

"Hey man, it's been probably a few months since I've read a fanfic, in fact, I've moved on from tumblr even. So I get it and wish you luck. You were one of my favourite authors and really motivated me. Sometimes I think it's time to move on. That was hard for me to accept in myself because Kpop has been something I've loved fro many years. It brings back memories and I feel nostalgic thinking about it. Anyways, thanks for writing."

Aug 19 2014. Here I am on June 21 2016 wondering what I used to do with all my time on this community. I've completely moved on from Kpop, despite desperately claiming it wouldn't be a faze back in the day. I feel rather embarrassed how into I was, actually... But alas I watch some of the new stuff that comes out but I must say my heart really lies in the 2009-2014 era.

I find it humourous I have found my way to this particular blog written by you that I commented on years ago. I remember feeling like I was questioning my identity as sad as that sounds. I had invested so much, and was leaving it. I remember all the good times reading all night to catch up. Your stories made an impact and I remember your username well. Again, thanks for writing.
jong040890hyun #2
it's okay ;;;;;; you were a really good author and thank you for everything you've writeen
Minkwangie #3
Only got to read this now TT I can totally understand though. At some point of time we grow up and move on from certain things in life. I have to say I really enjoy your stories though ♥hehe
scarlettwolf #4
Hey man, it's been probably a few months since I've read a fanfic, in fact, I've moved on from tumblr even. So I get it and wish you luck. You were one of my favourite authors and really motivated me. Sometimes I think it's time to move on. That was hard for me to accept in myself because Kpop has been something I've loved fro many years. It brings back memories and I feel nostalgic thinking about it. Anyways, thanks for writing.
Riine-Pryde #5
i've read quite a few of your stories chingu and i remember having a couple clever conversations; i respect your decisions because as an author in whichever direction you go you'll still be able to produce something that will lead others to feel the kind of reactions you're hoping for. i say this more as a friend than as a simple reader here on AFF go where ever your creativity takes you :) xx.


just please feel free to check in with us here and there to make sure you're still alive !
BeHappy #6
I would think that everyone understands because fanfics do become a burden to write at some point. Frankly, I didn't know how you went on for so long when I could barely voluntarily finish one single fanfic.
However, does this mean that you're never going to write on AFF anymore?
Lenaubrey #7
I understand completely and I respect your decision ^^ your stories were a great joy to read even if I was somewhat a silent reader, thank you :)
--kayotic #8
I think everyone eventually gets to this point. It's understandable, really. Things change, and we can only move on. I know deep inside that my infatuation with Kpop and fanfics is just a phase in my life and that one day I'm going to have to let it go. I wish you the greatest~ You have a talent when it comes to writing. Now go... go off to the bigger and better things you are destined for. C; Much love and the best of luck from one of your readers!
YooHaNa #9
hey authornim. i have been reading your fanfics all this time. i pray for your hapiness. anyone deserve to do what they desire. enjoy your life alright. take care and wishing you all the best ♡
Kpopmusic_lover #10
I'm gonna miss you!!! But I still want to keep in contact with you no matter what. I wish you the best for what you do!!
nightStar #11
But can u pls write again when u feel like to?
ExoticShawolinSpirit #12
I respect your decision. It's understandable. and I wish you the best in all that you do!
Oh, Are you going to keep the stories on here? :O
Sekshi-namjas #13
awwww TTATT i understand~ i hope you come back when ur passion is back~ We'll be waiting patiently~!!!
fangirlABC #14
This saddens me deeply, but how can we tell you to stay if your wish is to go? Hopefully you comeback sooner than expected and blow our minds away again! Thanks for all your hard working and writing! See you soon! :-)
jenli98 #15
Aww waee at least stay on aff too, I don't mind if you update or not. I just hope you still use this account.
Even though I don't comment on ur stories/post, I always read ur post cuz its funny and u always talk abt what's happening to you etc..
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