Ever changing characters

That's what life does to people most of the time. Making us change.

No matter how small or big, believe it or not, they do have an impact. I'm pretty much like that as well. Always, always changing. Mostly in terms of my feelings towards tangible objects and ever towards people. My favorite food, drink, habits and even the way I talk or express myself verbally, etc...

And it did worry me a lot. I used to dislike myself for being unable to be faithful. It was confusing and rather disheartening. Like why can't I just stick to this once and for all? Nope. Can't do that. Impossible.

But what if I never did find my true self? Will I be alright running around in this world never understanding myself? Worries like these made me detest my fickle self more. It made me feel like I don't actually have a proper definition.

As time goes, however, I guess I did embrace the fact that I'll always be like that. Yes, changing as quickly as a turn of a page. Just kidding, I'm not fickle to that extent. So... what I meant was with acceptance comes peace. With that in mind, it became a whole lot easier to move on in life.

I honestly think change is good. Well, not all changes are smooth and pretty. Some could get really messed up and complicated initially but the interesting thing is that it makes one reflect back a little. Reflect back on themselves and on life. Somewhat like a learning journey. That's one of the reason why I've decided to revive this dead tumblr. Time to keep a record.

Change, in itself, is best (well obviously) if you can get good things out of it. Don't we all want that hmm. More recently, I've been thinking of change as picking up or trying out something new. Life is full of trials anyway so why not? Not saying we should all be Yolo, but keeping an open mind is pretty fun. It made me feel refreshed and it definitely got less boring with more challenges around.

In conclusion, I have identified myself as a person who loves changing and that it is truly who I am. That written, I'm not doubtful of myself anymore, neither am I uneasy on what's to come.

Cheers to great changes.