They're Doing It Again

here i am again, during my month(s) of exams and my parents are at each other's throats again. they find the most IDEAL times to argue and disrupt the peace in the house. The week before my exams, arguing, shouting ... the ing thing is wearing at a person and definitely isn't conducive to studying and performing at my optimum. YET STILL my father has the audacity to tell me "don't let this affect you, you know what you have to do blah blah blah" but I'm not allowed to turn my music till it drowns out all sound when i'm by my desk because "You'll deafen yourself and you can't study like that" Think i could study any better with shouting in my head?

the month of my exams (which is now) they find the desire to argue -.- i mean seriously. All my brother and I really ask from them is to keep it stable during our exam times. I suppose that is much to challenging YET after exams are over, they seem perfectly fine. barely a peep in the damn house. Does that make any sort of fricking sense?

What would I not give to disappear somewhere during these exam months, turn up for my exams and disappear again. Then again, i wish i could disappear forever >.< ugh

*sigh*

i think i've vented off the little frustration that was building. now to focus on my chemistry >.< meh

Comments

You must be logged in to comment

MyBelovedTaeNy #1 May 17, 2014 16:05:59

You're a courageous girl, I know you'll get through this... Sorry for being so not enough present for you... <3

Turtle-Mei #2 May 17, 2014 14:08:38

I've been through this - I know how you feel! It wa hell for me because I couldn't exactly say to them, "You're the reason why I did terrible in my exams." but I had to be the bigger person and think to myself that they can't affect me because in the future, I can't use that as an excuse. I can't use my parents as an excuse to why I can't get to where I want. Instead, I fight the ability to pull through my exams, even though they make it hard for me. And I only hope you'll be okay too! My dad said the same thing - and it's bloody obvious we can't avoid our parents fighting and arguing - it's unavoidable. Another thing I did before my end of year exams is that I told my uncle I wanted to move out because it just became that serious. And when he talked to my parents about it, my parents immediately changed and tried their best to not fight; mainly because I had exams and they know that I'm not one to say things and then not do it. I don't know if you can do this too but if it's possible, I think you should go for it if you know it can help you with your exams. Whatever you wish to do, I really hope you stay strong and pull through, even though it's hard! One thing I always do is think about my role model and believe that sometimes he wakes up, afraid to be himself and afraid to encounter things too. And it makes me think that if he has got to where he is despite going through a lot, then I can too. Good luck chingu, you're in my prayers! <3

Yesung_forever #3 May 17, 2014 13:48:52

I don't know exactly when you're going through, but I have had and still have a lot of problems if you would say, if it would make it easier for you to talk to me then of course I would tell you (through privet chat of course. ^^)

I will not judge you at all! I promise you that. I'm not forcing anything on you! I am trying to help. I'm not a creep either!

Again, good luck on exams and I hope you have a good day. Good bye.

Yesung_forever #4 May 17, 2014 13:34:01

I'm so sorry. I know you must have it hard especially with your exams coming, but be strong, okay?
I know it's easier said than done, but it's a necessity! Maybe you can talk to your father or mother about it. If your mother is more easy going then her and vise versa. Maybe nether of your parents are laid back. Then you might be able to put head phones in and listen to music without them knowing. If you think that's too risky then that's okay don't do it.

I know it might not seem like it but this is just another bump in the road. It will pass and you will be happy again. Please if you EVER need anyone to talk to then I'm here, always! Even if you don't want to talk about your parents, I am still always here! I promise that.
Good luck on your exams! I really hope for the best ^^

KimHeeSung #5 May 17, 2014 07:31:34

Aww! I hope you are okay. This happened to me too, but the eventually stopped and now are talking to each other. I think they should really take the time and look around, because they are not the only people living their. You need to study and you can't with all that ruckus. I hope things get better, and if you need anything or want to talk you know where to find me! :)