I was on an accident yesterday, on May 10th, 2014.

I was on a family vacation, with my mom, sister, nephew, brother in law and his parents.

It was really, really, really terrible. A truck, which brought at least 100 motorcycle, crashing into the back of the car which I rode. I sat in the back with my sister, my nephew was in the back too because he wanted to take his toys in. the baggage in the very back.

It was happened in seconds.

I got the gut,

It was like I knew what will coming.

And I was right, when I looked back, there was a truck, the face of the truck was nearing my car, few centimeters I could say.

I could say it was one second before it crashed right behind of my back. I was lucky I could protect myself right before it crashed. Because I knew it was coming, I wasn't too shocked like my sister and my mother whose didn't see anything. I saw it coming, I saw it right in front of my face that the truck is right in front of my eye, centimeters behind the car I rode.

It was really, really, really happened in one second.

I couldn't say anything to anyone because it was only one second.

And everything happened in slow motion.

There was a loud voice of crash.

Multiple times.

Everything around me was floating around mixing with a shattered glasses from my back.

I thought I was dreaming or imagining things

One second later, I realized, I was right, it was real.

It was really happened.

My nephew cried. His hand was bleeding and there are many scratches.

I was so shocked. I thought, "OH MY GOD, WHAT HAPPENED."

And when I saw my back, it was the face of the truck, right behind of my head. Still there. And the car window just... Broken into thousand pieces.

I was too shocked.

I was shaking terribly, it was right behind of my back and the window's glass just shattered around the car!

Seconds later, everyone just realized what happened. My mom's forehead bumped into something hard, it was swollen and now turning blue...

I was so scared.

I was so scared.

I was so scared.

I was too shocked.

I can't do anything. After a while the truck moved back, the crashing cars pulled aside. There were a taxi in front of my car, we crashed into them, and in front of the taxi there was another car. But we were right in front of the truck! And the truck just crashed into us! What the hell, how could this happened?!

I was beyond terrified,

I'm so scared,

I'm too shocked.

Even though, there was nothing happened to me. There is no pain, no bleeding, I was just so shocked.

And my sister that right beside of me too, just too shocked we couldn't do anything, we couldn't move either, there were thousand shattered glasses everywhere, and the chair in front of me just broken so it was too small for me to move. Thank God, I got my foot pulled up. If I didn't pull my foots up, I could got trapped there because it was so small. But still, I can't move, there were shattered glasses everywhere. I could feel the glass in my foot, in my body, everywhere.

It was happened at 4 PM, I think.

My 2nd sister, messaging me, asking me how's the vacation. And I just answered, "we got into an accident.", "a truck crashed into our back."

News spreading around my sister's and mom's phone ringing with no end asking how was we going right now. I was still shaking.

I was too shocked.

Right now too, I feel so stressed and depressed.

The terrible memory repeating over and over and over over over and over again inside of my head.

I felt like crying every time I talked about this.

I got the bad gut and feelings about this earlier. Even a few weeks before the vacation,

I already said,

"No."

"Can you not going too, sis?"

"Mom is not going, either me."

"I won't go."

Because I could feel the bad feeling about this thing. A day before the vacation,

I said,

"No, I won't go."

"Mom, can we just go to eat sushi?"

"Mom, can you just not go?"

But I can't leave my mom alone! So I decided to go too. Why? Because of mom.

Imagine if this accident happened, and I wasn't there with my mother. I could cry all night long. More even.

I can't sleep at night, the bad feeling keep bugging me. The strongest feeling was right when the truck was behind of me. It was really, really, really strong bad feeling.

/mom, if you felt guilty for forcing me to go too, don't. Because I knew what was coming, and it was my decision to go too because I couldn't left you alone there./

I can't stop crying right now. It hurts so much.

If the truck was faster than that, we could've died.

But I know, my Lord is stronger and faster than the truck. I felt so grateful and thankful. I could felt My Lord's presence, he's saving us and protecting us. He's with us. I know it, it was a miracle. My almighty Lord protecting us and saving us. I feel so grateful and thankful that countless 'Thank You' still wouldn't enough. I just realized, how precious life and time is. My Lord just protected us, my family, my friend, and me. Everything could've happened in between unspoken words and time that will never stop. So say what you wanted to say.