Today was a terrible day for AP testing. It really actually kinda . The sun was shining, the sky was blue, and the birds were all chirping their happy spring melodies. While I was stuck in the gymnasium taking the Calculus AB exam for 4 whole frickin hours. Yes, it's all my fault for signing up for the class, but it was death.

I may have died and come back to life during that thing. 

Wait. Nope, still trying to regenerate some pieces right now. You know how it feels like you try really hard for something, but it just never works out? That was me and calc for this whole year. I thought I knew what I was doing, but the tests proved me wrong time and time again. It was frustrating and I can tell you I hated every minute of it. What am I supposed to work on if I can't even figure out what it is I'm lacking? And teachers try to help. 

Sure, they hold review sessions and spoonfeed us the answers, but when it finally comes to crack down and take the test, it's like a completely different language.

NOT taking Calc BC next year, even though the college application makes it look appealing. Then again, that's only if you pass it...

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But today was memorable. May the Seventh. (Is there any Star Wars pun for that?) The day the world changed for the better. Hahaha Just kidding, it didn't really...I just like to hope so...

Y'know what got me out of my predestined slump? The bright light waving me forward at the end of the tunnel?

My friends.

I love them so much. They're always so happy and encouraging and I love them all to death. Even those I haven't seen or talked to in years. I still remember you guys. And I miss you too :")

The world really does change colors once you have people to talk to who understand all your quirkiness but accept it anyways. And I guess that's all I havta say 'bout that.

I would die for you guys. Or maybe I would die without you...?

Either way, I love my friends all so much and thank them from the bottom of my soul for being friends with a weirdo like me :P