I am so desperate Lee Yubin, my korean kakaotalk penpal, I am just so desperate to remember your age and city. I had only known you for a couple of weeks, but when we replied to each other, it was like a breath of fresh air. My life hasn't been the best, it was just nice to have a chat with someone like you. Learning about each other was quite fun and moreso that I found out you liked sistar. I mentioned the upcoming LA Kpop festival and had somewhat promised to take fancams of sistar for you. Making someone happy, it was fun to do that once in a while, and I was more than eager for the concert to arrive to make her happy. Unfortunately, I had lied like usual to my overprotective family to be able to get to the concert, but I took the fancams. In the end, my mum was quite furious when she picked me up, but held her tongue as there was a friend in the car. I had gotten my phone taken away from me as punishment, and to this point, I'm still not sure where it is. It was depressing. Being an idiot, I guess, I tried to rebel the next day. I had avoided all contact and stayed in my room, thus not eating anything the whole day. My mum came in at night to talk to me, but I can't recall what she had said, for back then I didn't pay attention and only nodded whilst silent tears spilled out of my eyes and into my hair. The next day I felt like dying from not eating anything the day before. I arrived at school near the end of 2nd period. My father said I couldn't stay at home or my mum would be furious again. Although I favored my father more than my mum, I felt an extreme dislike. Your daughter was a walking corpse at this point, what's the point in making her go to school? It has been a week ever since I've had my phone confiscated. Mh mum has tried being softer towards me, but I try to shake her away. Her two-faced personality is what makes her ugly. This morning, my aunt had come over for some reason and although I was upstairs in my room, I could still hear their exchange quite fine. I believe my aunt had started talking about where I was, to which my mum replied about how I was punished over the kpop festival. It was her side of the story, and whilst recalling the event, she seemed so infuriated. At that point, I was trying to block out my ears. Another dislike about my mum, everyone of my punishments has to be told to her friends or relatives. I'm really tired. I had learned about the sewol ferry quite late, since I'm not just grounded from my phone, but mainly electronics. I remember the victims were from a school in ahnsang I believe. I had kept it in the back of my mind, and as the days grow on, it feels like something is eating at me from the inside. My only contact with Yubin, was on kakaotalk. You can only use kakaotalk on a phone. I worry, I slightly remember the city where Yubin lived, I believe it started with an ahn. I had narrowed it down to ahnsang or ahnsung, and that she was born in 1997. I believe this information could be completely wrong since I've only known her for a couple of weeks and I'm going by memory. I just pray that she's still alive and curse my mum for taking my only source of communication with her. I'd tell my mum about Yubin, but I'm scared about the possibilities. Whether she'll extend my punishment or anything else, I'm just scared. Sorry you never got to see the fancams Yubin.