Happy birthday my precious anchovy ♥

*Hello! I rarely do blog posts, and it's my first time doing this because it's my ultimate bias, Eunhyuk's birthday today! heh ^_^*
 

Dear Hyukjae,

Happy 29th Birthday! 

It's been 5 years since I've first liked you, and I have to say, I do not regret a single thing. People around me always think it's crazy to love an idol who doesn't even know that I exist, but they don't understand. 

Maybe years later, when I have grown even older, I may think why was I so foolish to have been so crazy over an idol? Maybe. But right now, I just want to live in this moment and be happy and thankful that I'm able to like you. You've been a big part of my teenage years, and you've been my source of motivation and happy pill. I'm always thankful whenever I get to see you on stage or live, it's such an amazing feeling and I'll never forget the adrenaline rush I get whenever I get to be part of the sapphire blue ocean. 

You'll probably never know of my existence, but it's okay, I'm just glad that you exist. I don't ask for anything more, except to be your fan and quietly support you. I'm sorry if I'm not like the past, where I spend all my free time researching and watching videos of you, or tune in to channels just to watch your comeback. Nevertheless, I have never forgotten about you, you'll always be in my heart as my most respected idol, and I'll never forget that. 

Has it been tiring loving you for these 5 years? Yes, it's been really tiring and tough, but I'm glad I stuck through it all. All the late nights staying up just to watch your videos, all the overnight queueing just to get a good glimpse of you, all the time and effort put in just for you, all the money spent just to buy your albums when I could be getting something else, all the judgemental looks I get whenever I say you are my idol. Do I regret a single thing? 

No.

When I look back, I'll be proud to say I've had such a big heart to be able to love someone this much, that I'm capable of loving someone this much. Also, I believe that I should not regret something that had once made me smile so much. 

You made me smile during my bad times, I would go online just to watch a happy or funny video of you. You always had that special power to make me smile no matter what mood I was in. I love seeing you dance, you look really handsome on stage, as your eyes burn with the passion you've had since you were young. 

I thank you for being so brave and attempting to audition again despite failing once, if not I wouldn't be able to see such an amazing person perform on stage now. 

I always call you Hyukjae instead of Eunhyuk, because the person I love to see is Hyukjae, not Eunhyuk. Sure, the passionate and amazing dancer, the funny and witty guy, Eunhyuk, would be nice to see at times, however, I love the shy and cute boy, the Lee Hyukjae that lies under Eunhyuk. The kind and filial boy, the one who always treats fans to food just because he knows how much they suffer, the one who cares for us even though he's not obliged to, the boy with many dreams, the real you.

I'm really lucky to be able to see you grow throughout all these years, and even though it may be a little late how I stepped into the fandom only 5 years after your debut, I hope you know that I'll always be here till the very end. 

I hope you find someone you love and if you already have, I hope you announce it to the public because no matter what decision you make, as long as you are happy, I will be happy for you as well. I really wanna see the lucky girl that's been loved by you, and I hope she cherishes you, because you are a rare gem to come by. 

Thank you for making me a better person, and my life has been happier ever since you stepped in. You're going into the army soon, and as much as I'm reluctant to let you go, I know you have to fulfill your duties. I hope you know that even though it's going to be 2 years, after that, I will still be welcoming you back. I'll be anticipating for the next Super Junior comeback, no matter how long it takes. As long as Super Junior continues singing, I'll always be supporting you guys.

On your 29th birthday, I hope you enjoy it with your loved ones and have an amazing birthday. May all your wishes and dreams come true, and may you shine even brighter than ever, my precious jewel. 

Happy birthday my love, Lee Hyukjae 

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anchovioushyukj
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aww ♥ so sweet