At this point, Cube Ent global auditions has ended. I happened to audition. And let me tell you, i'm feeling very nervous. I know i wasn't the best, but i just want to know if i actually have a chance. It would mean soo much to me if i got to the second round, even if it means some of the participants would hate me bc it's not them. If i get the chance to go to Vancouver i would prove to them that choosing me was not a mistake. Right now, i think i have a 2% chance, maybe 5%. But that's only because i followed the rules. I didn't spam anyones videos, i had no special effects, and my video was at least a full length song. As far as real talent? I'm not sure ...

At first doing this audition i was like "I don't have a chance, what're the odds of me winning? Yes! It'd be Amazing if i won. But if i don't which i prolly won't, if the public likes me it'll help me prepare for other future kpop auditions." But now ... Idk what to think... i see it as. There are going to be 15 finalists in vancouver, 5 of the contestants could be amazing dancers, another 5 amazing singers, and the other 5 people who did very well but could improve a little more in either catergory. That could leave 5 openings for me. But with all the contestants i don't even know. That does seem fair tho right?

I felt a little confident before, but as i watched some audition videos last night .... Well at least my family knows i'm not just a sports girl. I like dancing & singing. Well the end of Cube Ent's judging end on Valentines Day. The day of love & broken hearts, guess there will be another reason to be disappointed. But i just remembered something that made me feel better. Ik what it feels like to be eliminated, (but not in the case where i auditioned.I tried out) & i remembered Hyunseung & Big Bang. But now he's happier than ever with B2ST. Could that possibly happen to me? Maybe .... Altho i do hope i make it to the second round, who doesn't? But not just for me, for my mom (and family) too. I just wanna prove to her that miracles can/do happen. A special thanks to all who supported me ^^ You won't be forgotten. <33 I Hope for the best & all we can do is wait for the results.