Teenage Problems #4 (I want to cry and smile at the same time)
Remember that guy I said who I said I liked?? We used to go out a long time ago and we broke up. I re-developed a small crush on him. Well I asked a close friend of his to ask him if he liked me. Here comes the cry part. He said no. He said no without even giving a reson why. He said that my confession is like a facebook request and I ignored it. That is the most douche-bag answer I ever heard. He's single, I don't think any other girls like him. All my friends were saying he's an idiot for saying no. That he's a sissy little b*tch (excuse my language) That made me feel a little better. But my feelings are still crushed. Yes it does hurt and a couple tears did fall. I think I held them in well in school. Only a couple noticed. I didn't make a scene and show weakness when he's in the same class as me. I had lots of distraction though. My friends were cracking jokes trying to make me laugh which helped. And I had marching band and you can't think about crying when you are reading music. I feel like I shouldn't be crying but I can't help it. Maybe the thought of rejection is what hurts the most not who the person is. I guess I'm just too emotional...
On to what made me smile today.
Kpop. The end.
lol jk
Something did happen today that I forgot all about my pain. A boy asked me out today. He's in the marching band, plays the Tuba. He said he really wanted to go out with me and he thought I was cute. It made me smile :) Now this isn't some random person. He's been a good friend ever since I joined almost a year ago. I had no idea he liked me but I guess he either didn't show it or I was oblivious. The timing was perfect too. Of course I said Yes, and not because I got rejected. I like him back. He'll treat me right, I know it. I hope everything works out. I really do. The timing just seems TOO perfect to me though. The pessimistic side of me coming out. I feel certain with my desicion this time. I've had doubts this whole year but I don't have any... yet.
I'll see how everything goes tomorrow.
Fighting!!
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