Okay. Let me be honest. This is kind of serious stuff and its about my love life. Okay. Lemme start.

Theres a boy. Yes of course he's a boy or else i'll be lesbian because he's not a boy and for sure i'll wrote he's as she's. lol.

Alright, lets keep going. 

I dont know how to spill it omagosh it still confusing!

Okayhhh.

This boy, alright. Can we name he as A? alright. A told my friend that he likes me. 

Well that A boy is  actually the one that I smiled at him on his first day work. You know, as senior-junior-sincere-smile. And this is why I can't smile often to opposite gender. My smile is a curse. I know it!!

And I was like, "oh really. alright /le poker face/"

I was called as heartless at my workplace, as expected. I dont have feelings towards boys for i don't even know how long. Simply crush is totally yes but, liking is no. There's a huge different between crush,likes and love okay.

So, lets continue.

Then it clicked. A always went to his storeroom and he will walk passed my counter. I was like, "wow dude you're being obvious"

He was shy to ask my phone number so he ask my friend to ask me. lol. I would not give my phone number just like that. I told my friend that he has to ask by himself so i can give my phone number directly

And he did. Shyly. He actually just stood in front of my counter and silent in between. gosh.
Its me who start the convo and gave him my number without him asking. Well, he as less trying right?
 

But then, I'm afraid that all his doing just because of dealing with his fellow friends that I really, irks?  I dont know....... I've been through it once before okay! It is impossible for someone who is hotter than flame noticed and liked me who like cow in distress? duh ! 

But again, his doing making me believe that he is sincere to be friend with me. I ask my sister about this and she said that he might be dealing with his friend and he might be sincere with me. its 50-50.

How would you feel when he wait for you at the entrance when your shift was over and ditching his friends just to accompany you to  the bus stand? How would you feel when he secretly stole a glance at you when he's freed from customer just to check on you? Did boys usually shy when he's standing with the person he like? 

Seriously, i dont know how to think about this. Part of me said , "that was just a part of the deal. don't believe him unless you want to be used for their game" the other part said, "he is sincere. accept him alreadylah!"

And I'm on dilemma right now. He even gave me his bracelet :(

I want to treat him sincerely but im afraid that i'll get hurt on the next day. Im not gonna risk my heart for the second time!
And please, I need your opinions so so sooooo badly :(

Le bracelet <3 

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