Personality:
Moon Hyunjae. Beautiful name, huh? Even I think that it is a beautiful name. Too bad that the owner is nowhere near the beauty of the name. Do I know the owner? Of course I do! It is, unfortunately, me. Hahaha. You probably think that I'm one of those people who don't appreciate what they have, right? However, I truthfully don't think I'm anywhere near the cute nor pretty nor beautiful level because I'm just in the middle of those three. My looks is just average. Now that I think about it, everything about me is average. My intelligence, looks, voice, social status and even personality are just average. There is nothing unique nor special about me.
If you ask anyone in my school about who I am, I bet that 99.9% of them doesn't know who am I. The remaining 0.1% will probably be my TWO friends and my music teacher. Yeah, I'm not well known in the school body. In fact, it is almost like my existence and my absence don't affect any of them. It is most likely because I'm not the kind of girl who stands out for her skills or her friendly, talkative nature like some of the popular girls in my school. I'm simply the quiet girl who eats her lunch at the school yard instead of eating them at the school's cafeteria. I'm the kind of girl who prefers spending my free time at the public library than hanging out at the mall with my friends. I don't talk much at home, in class and every other place that has humans in it. It's not that I don't want to, it's just that I feel awkward talking to people. Maybe it's because of my shy nature or maybe it's because of my lack of communicating but I always try to talk with others even though my efforts keep failing.
I'm a bit towards the gentle side when it comes to gardening. It happens naturally due to my love towards plants. It just that I feel really peaceful around them that I even talk to them at times. When I'm tending my plants, I feel so happy because with the right amount of water, fertilizer and attention, the plants are going to grow beautifully and healthy. My gentle side even comes out even when I don't notice it. It just happens. Due to my gentle self, I rarely get angry or as you may called it; I'm even-tempered. I face everything with a smile even if people insult me or talk badly behind my back. I chose not to be angry because why should I? I mean, like, everyone has their own opinion and it is really nice of them to think about me. At least that means that I do exist at some point in their life.
I'm quite innocent and naive when it comes dating. That is because I've never date anyone before ever since I was born. Maybe it's because I'm just an average girl but no guys has ever ask me out nor confess his love to me. It is really humiliating for me because most of girls in my age has dated at least a guy and probably had done it. *sigh* I'm pathetic, am I? The me a year ago won't ever think about these kind of things but look at me now. I really want to have a boyfriend before I graduate. Desperate girl here!! The only romance I've experienced is through my reading of novels. They told me great stories that sometimes I feel like I'm the heroine and I've dated the hero. Now, I do really seems like a desperate, pathetic girl *groan*.
Likes:
Library
*I love being there because no one will judge my quiet attitude there*
Plants
*it's a miracle how pretty they get as time passes by*
Music
*because some of them describe me perfectly as if they're telling a story about me*
Foods
*who doesn't like them is an alien. No, even aliens need food once in a while. So, the dead will be more precise. I need food, I love food, I craze for food*
Swimming pool & Ocean
*Because I love swimming that I even asked for a swimming pool from my parents that I later got two years later*
Dislikes:
Girls who act like s
*I despise those girls who wear tight tops that show their belly button and short skirts that show their underwear. Are they too poor or something that they can't buy a longer, loose ones?*
People who give up easily
*what do you expect to achieve if you give up so easily?*
Winter
*Because most of my plants die during this season*
Alcohol
*People tend to get drunk when they drink any alcoholic drinks. They vow to not get drunk and drink as little as possible but their vow keep being broken*
Deadly sickness & Crime
*No one is suppose to die painfully. I hate sickness [especially the deadly ones] because, like war and murder, it doesn't care who its victim is. How old the person is. How he or she has a dream they want to achieve. Sickness doesn't care about all that. It simply goes to a person and watches him or her fall.*
Pet peeves:
People who taps their pencil on the surface of their table during a test
*whenever you're taking your test, you'll prefer a quiet atmosphere to make it easier for you to think but some people just don't get it*
Dirty dishes at some restaurant
*How could I enjoy my food if they serve it in a dirty plate*
People who think too highly of themselves
*No one is perfect but some people just won't admit it. They think that they are so perfect that it somehow gives them the right to look down to others. They are so stupid*
Fears:
Death
*I hate the fact that everything will meet its expiry date sooner or later. I'm scared of dying and the thought of my love ones dying. I hate it when my plants die when they reach their time*
Small, enclosed space
*I nearly died in a small box when I was a kid. I was in the box because the kid next door tricked me into going in it and he sealed the box using a tape. I was barely alive when my nanny found me. The incident traumatized me*
Habits:
*Grumbling when I am hungry*
*Singing along to the songs I like and liked*
*Pouting my lips when I realize that I can't have what I want*
Hobbies:
Swimming
*The moment I go into the water, I feel connected with it and all my worries and problems just go away. The water soothes me with it's calm flow that sometimes I feel like I'm in a different world where everything is just fine*
Singing
*Whenever I sing, everyone notices me and I can convince myself that I do exist even if I still can't find my purpose of living. Singing let me tell people of stories that they do not want to hear*
Style: Casual chic: casual yet cute
Trivia:
*I've never been in a relationship before.
*My favorite colors are black, violet and peach.
*I love every food that can be eaten and not disgusting but I love ddukbokki the most.
*Sour foods don't go too well with my tongue.
*I love to drink every type of coffee but my favorite one is mocha.
*I have a cell phone but I only have less than 10 numbers in my contact list.
*I've a swimming pool at my backyard.
*I can speak well in English, Mandarin as well as Korean.
*I started using my Korean name when I've moved to Korea.
*I prefer ballad and slow songs.
*My dream is to become a singer but my parents insisted that I've to pursue my studies in the law department.
*I'm the head librarian at my school library and one of the librarian at the public library.
Background:
December 28 1995 - a baby girl was born in the Moon's household. The infant is named Jia Li after her late grandmother who is also the eldest daughter in her family. I was born as a girl whose future has been planned from the moment my parents found out that my mom was pregnant. They want me to follow their footstep and maintain my family's glory in the law or politics department. If I refuse to accept their decision, then my younger sister has to bear the burden and that is why I obliged without any complaint.
I spent my school life being a good student, even though my result is average and I don't contribute anything to the school, and obey everything my teachers asked me to do. I never try to pick a fight with anyone and people just avoid me. I'm just invisible to them - a presence that doesn't need to be seen. I've studied law through the law books that my father gave each year for my birthday and Christmas present ever since I was 6. While other kids went to the amusement park with their parents, I went to watch the trial at the courthouse. If I were to put it simply, I would say that my childhood is not fun at all.
My family and I moved from our home in Tianjin, China to our new one in Seoul, South Korea four years ago when I was 14. It was hard for both me and my younger sister to adapt in our new surrounding whereas my parents were easily fit in due to their experience on going to Korea several times before. It took me more than half a year to completely mastered the basic of the foreign language and it took even longer for my sister. Thank goodness that we were enrolled in an international school where there are Chinese teachers. I even improved English through my observations on various students that came from various countries.
My life is dull and plain right from the moment I was born but it was alright. That is until a few months ago, I found out that I'm diagnosed with a heart cancer at stage 1. Now, it's in stage 2. I though it was just a minor fever or something but I experienced dizziness, shortness of breath and some over-sweating for more than a week so I decided to go to the hospital after received the same result at the pharmacy and clinic, saying that I'm just having a fever. I went to the hospital alone as my sister went on a school trip while my parents were at work. When the doctor came with a result test in his hand, he looked at me with a gaze full of pity ness. Then, he told me that I'm officially a cancer patient.
I didn't tell a soul about my sickness, not even my friends whom I have known for about three years. Only the nurses and my doctor know about it. They often ask me to bring my parents with me every time I go to the hospital for a treatment but I simply shake my head while telling them that my parents are in another country when the truth is they are just at home. No one suspects a thing. When a person asks me if I'm feeling fine, I'll simply say that I've a fever, that's all. One of my fears is seeing people die and how ironic is it that now I'm possibly going to die. The doctor suggested that I should undergo an operation that has the possibility to cure my sickness or to make it worse. I want to do it but I ask him for more time because if the operation fails, then the rate of the cancer to spread in other parts of my body will increase which means my expiry date will approach faster than before. I'm scared of dying. I don't want to die. I want to have a boyfriend, then get married to him and become a mother of my own children. Too bad that I only have 30% on surviving the battle between myself and the cancer.
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