Ahh okay..so. I have this goal that I have been setting for myself...but as I get further into my studies..and get pulled into drama, I find myself losing my passion. The drama is done and I've established that you can't trust anyone but yourself,and I hate everyone so that's too late.

But I'm losing it. I'm not as motivated as I used to be..I need help to spark up that motivation but I don't know how... help?

also today was really ing ty because nobody remembered my birthday and when we had a family gathering my entire bbirthday was upstaged by a football game and a baby.

conclusion:I need help sparking my motivations, I hate kids, and birthdays, and people, everything.