Guys, I know I haven't been posting or updating my stories lately these days due to my hectic schedules in college but I really need your help right now.

I and one of my bestfriends had a fight yesterday. He's been going through a lot. He wanted to commit suicide.

I wanted to help him but he didn't want me to do so. It went on till the point that I cried all night. It hurts and I'm tired.

I wanted to pour my feelings out and I did. Now I want to pour it out by writing.

I do hope you read the passage below. I was chatting with my classmate. I guess I poured my heart out while I wrote a message to her whose been going through a lot with friendship as well. Here is the message turned into a text to be read by all of you.

 

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Mistakes—One of the Greatest Lessons Learned In Life

By Raiza Lorenzo

 

 

                                       Don't worry about me. I'm fine now. I guess I'll just let him go. I'd rather not think about him anymore. I'm tired and

                              hurt but I know I'll get better soon.

                                       I have to stay strong whatever happens for my other friends. I'll pray to God always that everything will be okay.

                                       In case he really  killed himself, I'll accept it. It  might be my  fault that I triggered his mind for doing such thing but

                              I'll accept it. I will stay  strong and  learn from this mistake. I  may have failed  on  helping  him but  surely I will be more

                              careful next time. Even though it really is my fault, I will do my best to get over it and be with my friends always.

                                      It may be killing me in the inside--this feeling of guilt. I thought of killing myself or hurting myself more because of

                             this  pain crushing  me  but  I clearly  know it isn't worth it. I  have to bear with it for I  know that  there is always a way

                             besides death. I need to bear with it for there might be a good thing waiting in the end.

                                     Just like what Kelly Clarkson says, "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger". I think I'll hold onto that phrase and

                             will be stronger than ever for the others whether or not they accept me after the mistake I've done. Hurts like heck but

                             I also may be back into the world of an outcast like in highschool.

                                      I don't care as long as no one gets hurt.

                                      I love my friends and I love this friend as well. I  don't  know if he's  still alive right now but  I am willing to let  him

                             go.  Keeping him in my cage of worry may be pressuring him and keeping him crushed. I think it’s time to let go.

                                      I'm thankful for having him as a friend even though he has hurt my feelings a lot.

                                      If he is still alive and I meet him again the next day, I will still go by my words and not interact with him 'cause he 

                             will still feel  encaged if I did.

                                      However, if  there is another way  I  hope we can start all over again not as close  friends, not as  friends but as

                            classmates. Not more than that. I want to start all over again just as before where we are only friends of Caroline but

                            not friends with each other. I shall put a mask over my emotions and put my emotions into a cage for now on no matter

                            how it hurts me. All I have to do now is be strong and bear with every pain that comes after me.

                                     Whatever hardship I go through, just like the drawing that I created during History class…

 

 

                                      Life is never easy. Life is like you in the middle of the sea where the waves hit you repeatedly. Every wave

                              is like every trial. Some waves hit you but you never fall. It just pushes you. Then you stagger. Then, there are

                             waves that are too strong for you to handle that you fall and nearly drown.

                                      It's just like dying all over again 'cause of failure and remorse. Still, I believe that God is testing our faith by

                             giving us all these trials so I shall accept and  believe in him forever. I believe that God is the way and he will be

                             our helper.

                                     In every storm, there is hope. That is why there is a sun hidden behind the dark clouds in the sky. You have

                            to bear with it and fight till the end because at the end of the storm, you get closer to peace just like how close

                            you get to the hope you wish for. As the sky opens up, you will see the sun and the warmth will wash over you.

                            There I know that God is always with you.

                                  Not all trials will have a good result. There will always be trials that have the bad ones. The wave might push

                            me down but I will always stand up no matter how much it hurts and I will fight and accept the faith that is coming

                            towards me. Hurt or not, I have to be strong. Learn from my mistakes then try again until I succeed the next time.

 

  

 

                          I'll be alright. I will always stay faithful to God and pray everyday.

               The past few months, I was drifting away into the world of worldliness. I guess this is how God shows me that he is always there

               for me. This is his way of showing me that he is the only way, the truth and the light.

                          I accept. Now, I am truly proud to be a Christian. With God by my side, I will survive. I know I will.

 

                         So Yoonie, don't worry about me. I'll be alright.

                         Sometimes it would be better to let go. No one can tell anyone's faith. All I can do now is pray that all will be fine.

 

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Guys, I'm really desperate in helping me but I can't do anything but pray.

Please help me pray for him and that he'll be alright. I'm really worried for him.

Please help me guys. I can't have him ending his life like this.

Please help me pray.