I need comfort or something ;;

Why did I play this song at this time/ this day/ this moment? Why out of all songs this one comes up? I just feel like crying but I'll look weak in your eyes but strong in others, but others dont matter to me, its you who does, but since you made the decition after I was thinking about it a day beforI know some people say 'As long as you're happy Im happy' but since your happy Im not. Im sad and just empty. There are many things I ask myself like. 'Why did I fall in love when you didnt really catch me?' 'Why do I feel like cryong when I see you wiht that girl?' 'Why do I only talk to your freiends when your gone?' 'Why dont I look at you the way I used to?' A lot of 'WHYs' go through my head but I dont get anything :'c Then I'll ask myself  'What if I didnt fall for you?' 'What if we didnt meet?' 'What if we never fall in love?' Theres a bunch of 'What ifs' That I also think about but I'll still get nothing. I still listen to our song at night, I still laugh at the jokes you used to tell me, and I still laugh at the time when I dressed you up as a girl and we went for a walk. I still remember everything we did but now it just seams like nothing to you but something to me. I miss you but you dont miss me and I wish you did 3                                                         Can tell me what it is when Im not ready to let go of someone and give me a hug.