My week - EXTENDED
So, short and sweet:
My mom is back in the hospital. Her spleen ruptured and she was bleeding into her stomach. She almost died again, for the second time this week. She had emergency surgery and is stable at the moment. She should be out in a week.
Added to that, my husband's dad was diagnosed with throat cancer on Monday. Inoperable. Chemo only. Didn't expect news like that; needless to say we're all freaked out.
And I started my period. Glad for no babies, but I feel like and am moody as hell. Contemplated suicide today, so I went to sleep for three hours instead with SHINee's two new songs on loop. Had some nice dreams as a result.
Finished Don DeLillo's White Noise which put me into a cosmic depression on a universal front. Beautiful novel, darkly realistic.
Just updated Seducing Mrs. Choi, and wanted to say THANK YOU to to the people who really read and love that story. It means a lot to me. I wrote this chapter as an escape from my reality of my ty life. So, the fact that I have only lost one sub with the new update is only mildly discouarging, but not terribly so. The other two I lost before I posted, so I have no clue what their deal was.
Anyway, who cares. I need to learn to write for myself and be happy about it. But for some reason winning approval from others is a life-long disease of mine. I'll just add it to the list.
I'm going to bed now. Thanks for entertaining my macabre musings.
~Lani/UM
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