A Letter To Cho Kyuhyun from Choi Sooyoung

My muse is dead. I can't write. To prove it, here's what I got after purging my head to write something as an apology to you guys. :'( I'm sorry. 3

 


 

 
Dear Kyuhyun,
 
Hi. I don't know how to start this letter. I guess I'll start this with telling the truth. I love you.
 
There I've said it. 
 
I know it's late. Too late. That even if I shout to the world how much you mean to me, you will never come back again. I know it's my fault. I'm sorry I made you wait. I'm sorry I made it too hard for you. But you do know the reason why, right? It's because I am scared. I am scared that if I give you my heart, you will hurt me just like how the others before you did.
 
You said you won't. You said you're different. And even if I keep on telling you that I don't believe you, the truth is, I do. I believe you and in those little moments that we share, I have already given you my heart.
 
I love you. 
 
You told me you love me too. Do you still remember?
 
It was snowing when you said that to me. You were looking at me intently, waiting for my answer. I was quiet. But that's because I'm doing my best not to cry. I like you so much but I can't afford to give my heart that easily. But God knows... God knows, I already love you.
 
Is it that easy for you to forget all that?
 
I know I shouldn't be saying this. I know I shouldn't be blaming you. But it hurts. It hurts so much.
 
You shouldn't have told me you liked me. You shouldn't have said you'd wait. You shouldn't have given me false promises when you know you can't grant them.
 
Is that easy to fall apart? It seems so easy for you to say goodbye.
 
But don't worry, I will do my best to move on. I have to. The first steps are the most difficult but I will work hard. I hope that in sending this letter, it will make my heart go lighter.
 
I want to hate you. But I can't. And even if I know there is no hope left, I still hope.
 
I shouldn't have liked you that much.
 
 
Sincerely, 
Sooyoung

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aeioumi_
#1
Diay si Changmin gasuwat ani... joke lang. ayaw ana.
shacsz #2
It broke my heart...omf...
mondenschein
#3
it's so heartbreaking ...
/cries
nikatsu
#4
/cries I have missed this pairing....
appretiare
#5
is this from any of the stories you wrote?
it's so sad v.v