oohhhhh.. I just sent a message to a guy, i'm interested in a bit.. about my forever alone feelings and

wondering about when I would find someone for me. I hope he gets the message,, that i'm hinting something to him..

he seems interested too.. I think.

I really hope this would lead somewhere. I think me and him have been too polite with each other.. all we do is talk about some boring stuff.. like what have you been doing.. I did this and that.. the end.., I feel like our conversations need to get deeper now so i'm trying to change that. I hope he won't be too shocked about this sudden change..

I'm not that sure about this guy though.. he seems really awesome but still he doesn't give me those sensational huge feelings I had for someone in the past, but I do feel some kind of connection to him.. but who knows maybe it's better this way. I won't get my feelings hurt that badly if I don't fall too deeply for him and if nothing happens.. at least not yet.

I'll see what happens.

If he is not for me then not. But if he is then he is.

I don't want to get too emotional about this yet.