i feel like sobbing and shaking right now.

honestly, exo, i remember the day when i was skeptic about you all. in fact, i am skeptic to kpop itself. i can remember my friends chanting mama and me rolling my eyes. i remember them dancing to history and urging me to like you guys.

i was bored so i decided to go to youtube.

and i watched the mama mv.

you all claimed my heart.

i began to venture in kpop, struggling hard to remember your names, your faces, your personalities, interesting facts, etc - i was a noob back then. when i finally remembered all of your faces, i could remember the faces of other groups, and i'm glad i did.

i only started becoming an exo-stan since november, the month where my first fanfiction - aeternalis was created. your mama mv was all it took to me right in the fandom - not your faces, not your personalities, but your talents, your voice, your dances.

thank you exo. for everything.

even though we have the dramas, the conspiracies, the scandals, the rumors, i'm still glad i'm at this fandom, because it was worth it, scrolling in tumblr, seeing your smile, it was all worth it. worried sick when you were hurt, when you didn't appear. but it was worth it all. it was worth it.

(i'm being melodramatic but seriously this is what i feel.)

i remember the days when i struggled to watch your interviews (because my stupid internet won't load anything). for instance, exo-m's happy camp, the whole video clip was 1 hour. for me to buffer, it was 6 hours. but it was worth it.

i paled when i heard the accidents you have gone through, when i was not in the fandom. i feel sick for marking you guys 'same as every other kpop group'. no, you're not.

maybe you're separated into two subgroups, but you're still one. you'll always care for eachother, because i know, deep down all of you became each other's brother. you already have a strong connection, all of those years training.

maybe you feel irked because one of the members has more fans than you, but remember: a true exo fan is a fan that supports all of the members, that fangirls for all of you, not saying that he hates this one member. that's not even an exo fan.

maybe they have biases, but real, true exo fans supports all of you.

maybe you have disagreements, you have arguments, but we don't know. it happens eventually, in all groups, but still, deep down you know you're brothers. it was bound for one of you to apologize.

it has been one year for you guys, three hundred and sixty five days. it's been six months for me to stan you guys, and i don't regret it. not at all.

let's close this overwhelmed-with-feels blog post with something you've always been stating.

WE ARE ONE, WE ARE EXO!