I'm in the mood of thinking this kind of drabble. I hope you'll read this with all your heart. I know it's like a really emoting type. Actually this is almost based on my true love story. So I make it al little dramatic.. 

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When I say "I love you", do you think I didn't mean it?  When i say "you're all I am thinking." Do you think i'm lying?

You hurt me so bad, but then I can't hate you. You tell things to me that makes me flutter. But still I know deeply in your heart that you didn't mean it and your lying when you said those words to me. Those sweet smiles, it really makes my heart skip a beat. Your mesmerizing eyes and your perfect lips are so irresistable. But then you're like my greatest fear that I don't want to see. You're like my nightmare when I sleep at night. How could a man like you- who is near in the word 'perfect' can do this to me? I thought you can be a shoulder to lean on. I thought you are the light to my darkness night. I thought you are my shield when someone is hurting me. But I was wrong. So wrong..

The happiest times with you turns into a worst one. A really worst one.. Everytime I saw you walking with a girl hand in hand, it's like you are stabbing my heart in a million times. And when you kissed her lips, it's like you are breaking my body into pieces. You tell her you love her, and that you will never ever leave her. I wish you can say all those words to me without thinking twice. I wish I was the girl you are telling those words right now.

The tears that I bursted out is all because of you. I'm such a stubborn for falling inlove with you. And when the day comes when you need help, don't expect that I will help you. I don't want to be poisoned again with your unrealistic and untruthful love. Every night I am always thinking if you are missing me even just once. I really love and admire you. You are my inspiration in everything. But that was before you ruined my whole life just because of your stupid love. My heart that was really soft and warm is now a cold and numb one. 

I feel really sorry for myself. I am like a bad girl when I'm still falling inlove with you. And right now, I really feel sorry for myself for letting this all happen. I'm happy right now and ready to face the REAL one. Thank you for letting me realize how I was very stupid when I am still into you. I am ready to open my cold and numb heart and make it a soft and warm one again. Because I know, you are just the past. My unrealistic and untruthful love of past.