Before I start, I just want to say, I love my mom more than anything in the world. She's my everything. If I didn't have her in my life, I'd be crap in this world. My father left when I was a baby, she got remarried and the douchebag put her into bankruptcy. My mother had to work her off to put our family of three (including my half brother) back on our feet after BOTH of our dads stepped out on us. I owe everything to my mother, and the fact that we're so close yet live so far away from each other only makes me love her more.

Any who, recently, I was asked out for the second time by an actual boy to a dance (finally T_T I'm very unpopular). Let me just say, I've been to like two dances in my high school life? (I'm a sophmore) I was asked by a boy for the first time in the winter, but I rejected him because my mother said I couldn't go to his school's dance, so instead I invited him to my school's dance, which she approved. (I go to an all girl's school) I was asked again this time, and I'm practically begging her because it's supposed to be a group date with the members of my dance crew.

My mother is currently in her stage where she knows I'm growing up but she wants me to stay her little girl. She's in the stage where she just wants to lock me up at home as her good baby girl, but she also wants me to start making my own decisions.

Her answer to my begging/asking was: Why do you keep asking to hang out with your friends? I don't like that you make decisions on your own. You know it's not good for you. I don't like the idea of you going on this dance, so I don't approve, but you can go if you want.

I am really conflicted with what she said. She's basically telling me I can either go be a normal teenager or come home to an unhappy mother. I've been crying nonstop since she replied. I just. I'm emotionally distressed. I want to go because I barely get to hang out with my friends! Yet I don't want to upset someone so important in my life.

What do you think?

I know that most of you are probably going to say stay at home because she's my mother. But you know, this is a once in a while chance for me to go hang out with my friends. As of now, I'm drifting away from a lot of my good friends because I spend so much time with my family. Everything I do, I keep my family in mind. I never want to make any of my family sad or upset. Just one night, even if it's one night, I want to feel like I'm maturing rather than being a "little baby princess."

Give me feedback Q_Q?