I will probably get a lot of haters because of this...

... but I simply don't care.

September 11th is a terrible date, I admit it. All those lives lost and everything... I don't want to repeat what everyone else is saying.

But I've had enough of it - everyone's always talking about it... Now I'm skipping through channels and it's again the biggest 'news' everywhere... I come here and everyone's reposting things about it... but the truth is - whenever I think about it, although I feel sorry for all the people - and that's just something no one should go through, I still remember bombing of Yugoslavia (then it was Yugoslavia) in 1999. and how no one ever cared about that and what we were going through.

Who will bring me back my horrible two and a half months (not 1 but 77 days) - when I was only 15 and my mom forced me to leave the country, my family and friends? I wish no one ever goes through things like those again. The not so pleasant situations I experienced in Budapest - together with our amazing friends who gave us their home for those two months, the tranquilizers I was drinking then in order not to go crazy, the terrifying feeling caused by the horrible sound of sirens (I still cover my ears when I hear that sound on tv - in a film or something), the abnormal urge to sleep for the whole day, hoping the next time I wake up the nightmare would be over. Shaking with fear and calling home frantically because bomb fell next to my dad's home, crying all the time and wishing I never left Serbia - which resulted in me developing the fear of going abroad - ironically now I travel a lot, but still... whenever I'm going somewhere I have this horrible feeling deep inside and I almost want to cry - every time... I'm just scared (even though I know it's totally irrational) that if I leave I won't come back. And so much more... so many horrible stories... Luckily my family and friends came out of it safe and sound, but it still affected us all...

So yeah, I'm terribly sorry for saying this... but I just feel like it's not fair. Of course, life is not fair in general... but at the time like this - when everyone's remembering this horrible situation that happened 10 years ago... I remember this.

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RisingSun #1
Thanks dear... I need to add you guys to my friends now I know who you are XD
kaipocalypse
#2
Omg o___o
I agree with all the people below me, NOTHING like this should've ever happened to anyone, it's just...it shouldn't.

It's true, it was very brave of you to share this personal story here, and be able to go through it. Agree with Asiret, all you can do is just be grateful that none of your family members was hurt, nor are you.

This isn't worth to hate, nobody should hate on this ._.

P.S : It's Seungho :3
RisingSun #3
Thanks <3
Asiret
#4
Oh dear..
I really don't think ANYONE should go through anything like this, and that 9/11 should have never
happened. I agree with DearlC, i find you very brave for being able to go through this and share
your personal story. There were many lives lost that day, and many people went through this is
as well.. all you can do now is to be grateful that no one in your family was harmed or anything, and that you are all together now.

Oh and if you don't like 9/11 then.. try avoiding the news and such. Relax and play some music
to let your mind things off for a while.

p.s - I do not hate you for writing this, and i don't think anyone should be hating on others.
p.p.s-
It's Yoseob 8DD
Tesshi
#5
I'm.. speechless. Stuff liek this shouldn't happen. It just shouldn't. Ugh...
RisingSun #6
Thanks a lot =)
DearIC #7
OH! I think it is very brave that you share your personal story here. I was also watching the news today, and well the whole week there has been a lot of news about what happen during 9/11, but the truth is that many terrorist attacks had happened all over the world and many people had also experienced the fear of going through those attacks and that's very personal. Here in Peru during the 90s there were also many attacks and that have left a lot of feelings of fear and sadness....I was just a kid back then and it was really a bad experience...just like you I wish nobody had to experience that before or now or in the future...but I'm glad you had your family and friends by your side and that they are fine.