I will probably get a lot of haters because of this...
... but I simply don't care.
September 11th is a terrible date, I admit it. All those lives lost and everything... I don't want to repeat what everyone else is saying.
But I've had enough of it - everyone's always talking about it... Now I'm skipping through channels and it's again the biggest 'news' everywhere... I come here and everyone's reposting things about it... but the truth is - whenever I think about it, although I feel sorry for all the people - and that's just something no one should go through, I still remember bombing of Yugoslavia (then it was Yugoslavia) in 1999. and how no one ever cared about that and what we were going through.
Who will bring me back my horrible two and a half months (not 1 but 77 days) - when I was only 15 and my mom forced me to leave the country, my family and friends? I wish no one ever goes through things like those again. The not so pleasant situations I experienced in Budapest - together with our amazing friends who gave us their home for those two months, the tranquilizers I was drinking then in order not to go crazy, the terrifying feeling caused by the horrible sound of sirens (I still cover my ears when I hear that sound on tv - in a film or something), the abnormal urge to sleep for the whole day, hoping the next time I wake up the nightmare would be over. Shaking with fear and calling home frantically because bomb fell next to my dad's home, crying all the time and wishing I never left Serbia - which resulted in me developing the fear of going abroad - ironically now I travel a lot, but still... whenever I'm going somewhere I have this horrible feeling deep inside and I almost want to cry - every time... I'm just scared (even though I know it's totally irrational) that if I leave I won't come back. And so much more... so many horrible stories... Luckily my family and friends came out of it safe and sound, but it still affected us all...
So yeah, I'm terribly sorry for saying this... but I just feel like it's not fair. Of course, life is not fair in general... but at the time like this - when everyone's remembering this horrible situation that happened 10 years ago... I remember this.
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