i come to think suddenly...this is going to end soon, right?

it's going to end, but i don't know when...

it's all the same with the oppas..actually, i still like them a bit much...

yeah, they made my day, they made me smile...

they made me feel like this world is huge and vast...

but sometimes, i just don't find anything interesting in it...

i quickly sink in loneliness, and i at least for the time being always think that after all, everything is going to end lonely...

i hate feeling this way. it made me somehow feeling down, i'm just...

i'm just another human that need care and love. and i'm expecting it from other than my family members because i never tell them anything.

problems, small or big, i get through it alone...this what makes me feel distant to them.

and i really hoope, that someone...

will come to me and say, 'FRIENDS?'...i'd be overjoyed...