Reasons why being shy .
Being shy ....I would know. It might not seem like such a big deal....But if you were like me and thought a lot about it,it ....A lot.
1.I'm so anti-social...I'm never the first one to say anything ...Ever... I'm just way too shy and nervous....Afraid that I'll do something stupid...Or say something stupid...I hate being with a crowd of people...I feel uncomfortable...
2.I can't even answer a simple question when the teacher calls on me.I mean,I know the answer...I'm just afraid that I'll get the answer wrong and will look stupid....When I do answer,I answer very quietly.Most of the time I know the answers.....But I'm just too scared....
3.School year is almost over and I haven't said one word to my crush.Well he asked me one question about something but that was it...Plus his friend was there so it doesn't count.For some reason I feel that he hates me...But then again,I think everybody hates me.I just can't bring myself to talk to him.What if he doesn't like me....(I don't even mean it in a romantic way)...I mean what I if he really just doesn't like me.....What if I look or sound stupid?~....Maybe he wouldn't want to talk to girls like me....
4.I let people push me around too easily.Of course I'll snap once in a while...but...still.Now that I think about it....I think I gave those people a reason to bully me....I'm so shy,I would freeze when I get called on the teacher...It's little stuff like that,that makes me look stupid....
How I'm socially akward....It's wierd...And I'm not one to fight people...I guess I was an easy target.
It's probably my insecurity....The reason why I get so shy and nervous.....
It's my depression.....Since there's never a time where I think I actually look good~....
That explains everything.....how I think I'll look stupid....How I think my crush hates me....How nervous I am.
I just wish I wasn't born this way...Or better yet...Never born at all~.....
Like....What's...The point?....I'm so freakin pathetic...Not because I'm all shy....
Because of many things....If I had anything to be confident about,I would be.
I just want to dissappear....
I'm so sorry...Again...For ranting~..... Just wanted to let it out. I sound stupid?....Yeah I know...But hey it's not..That..Stupid...Right?D:....
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