For the very first time, I regretted for not listening to my parents.  I remember very well what my mother had said to me that night.  She said in tears that one day I would regret and I would be troubled. 

Actually, by right I can never blame anyone for I had made this decision myself.  But something that made me felt so disappointed is that after so many things have been done, in the end I would be treated this way.  Perhaps what my best friend said to me 5 years ago was right after all.  She said “To have your thinking, life must be very good.  You’re naïve and always have good thinking about others and those who are good to you.” 

I was terribly hurt back then cos I hated being called naïve.  But after all, I think I’m just a naïve person.  In this world, no matter how hard you tried to be good to one person, in the end you would not get anything in return.  Perhaps, no matter what a person does, they should first think about ownself instead of others.  Seriously, what’s the point of being so good to people…nothing good would return to you, this is a fact you can never deny, sadly.

At this moment of time, there are so many things running through my head, so many things which I hope there’s someone who could just sit by my side and listen to me, but there’s no one whom I can talk to.  Guess this would be the best place for me to vent all my feelings.

I wonder how long, this bad condition/ situation would last…