and they happily live ever after
... THE END.
this is just the hopeless side of me. if you can't stand with this side of me, just don't read it. it's the same post that I've published on my blog. so yeah. the same.
I'm now suffering with my writer blocks. so, this is just a part of things that keep blocking my ideas to continue writing my fan fiction. so, I need to get rid all of these and complete my fiction. so yeah, if you can't bear with this mushy type of entry, get lost already.
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do you believe in happy endings? do you believe that in the end, it will be alright? because I do. I do believe in happy ending. I do believe that in the end, it will be alright. just like they way it was started. but somehow, the situation is a bit complicated right now. I'm started to loosening my faith to happy endings. I don't want to put a high expectation. because in the end, I'm the one who'll suffer the most. and I'm tired with all of this.
I want to smile happily not smile to covered my pain. which called loneliness. but what else can I do besides smile like I never been hurt? fight my worst day so I can deserve a good one? even how hard I tried to hide all this sorrowful, my eyes can't lied. even how many masks that I'll wear, my eyes can't lied. it's hurt. and it's really does.
and even if it's already happens a long time ago .. no matter how many times I've denies about it, I'll always remember every detail, every moment, every piece of the memories. no matter how much I tries to forget, it will always be there.
I just wish that I had never met him. then there would be no need to impress him. no need to want him. no need for loving him. no need to crying over him. no need for heartbreaks. no need for pain or tears. no need for crying myself to sleep. no need for acting like he care. no need for everything he've done to make me feel like absolutely nothing.
but then again, I'm glad I did meet him. cause he was the one who always asked me if anything was wrong. he was the one who loved me for me. the one who cared when everyone else didn't. the one who listened. the one who stayed up late just to talk about the randomest ever. he was the one who I told secrets to. the one who taught me new things. the one who laughed at my bad jokes. the one who did things, just for me.
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