So I have a bestie that I'm going to call R (unimportant but we are both girls, shes panual  and I'm a polyamorous lesbian) so I have a crush on R and we can only call and text (we live far apart and I'm planning to visit her soon) but in one of our calls a random question popped into my head all of a sudden and I said "hey R I just thought of a random question can I ask you it?" She said yes and so I said, "who is the most attractive in our friend group?" (My friend group consists of 2 other people not including me and R) she said... "I dont find any of you attractive" (this happend today) / another thing that happened was that I was watching a sad vid and I had drawn some vent art and I sent a pic of it to R and I texted her and told her not to share it with anyone and when she texted back she said "its OK I won't send it to anyone, and its OK we all need to vent sometimes" 😊 it was so cute and I loved that message, I even have it bookmarked (that happend yesterday)/ and I dont know what to do and I need help, any advice? (Idk if this helps anything but I am a female Taurus with very little patients and I have ADHD and no father I also like to draw but I'm not really that good at anything but weirdcore/ R is a female libra with both of her parents who's a really good artist who can't draw humans but is really good at animals)