Hello guys, sorry that this isnt fancily coded or anything, but I'm typing this during my lunch break at work cause I have nothing else to do.

I've been doubting a lot about my stories. I have really been trying to keep them all fresh and updated, yet my engagement and the apps I get from subscribers is close to none. It is a busy time, yes, and aff is lowkey dead, but I always feel like I'm doing all of this for nothing. I've been asking around for reasons that my engagement is so low while other stories still get a decent amount even during aff's zombie era. Some people said that they were put off and overwhelmed by how many stories I had running at once. And that made me think.

I am the kind that once she gets an idea she immediately throws herself at it. Sometimes I get an idea at work, and I'm just so excited to go home and work on the idea that I get hyperactive. Getting comments and apps on my stories fills me with so much joy, but because I'm so excited, getting nothing is a great disappointment and it immediately gives me a lot of self-doubt. Not to be dramatic but... I am very dramatic and sensitive oops. I really wish I wasnt affected by this but these stories are all little passion projects of mine, and when barely anyone seems to care I just can't help but feel sad. And I at hiding those emotions so yeah... I'm sorry to all of you that have seen me complaining and being a desperate little . It's how I react to things.

As time passed, having 8 stories waiting for apps and preparing to be started at the same time started to get a bit overwhelming for me as well. Not really in a too much work way, but just that I feel like the stories are starting to overlap and fade into one another. And accompanied by people being busy and held back by how many stories I have, I have made a decision.

From now on until further notice, I will put half of my stories on hold. I know some of them have just opened, but to bring greater quality, I think that this will be a good move. The stories that I will be putting on hold will be Cherry://Lactic, Hynix gaming, Herätys and Cygnus. Sunlight entertainment and Produce R 101 are like my babies, I am so attached to those stories, so I have decided to focus on them for now.

Having only the sunlight and produce fics opened will make it easier for me to focus on them more and pour more passion into them, and it will also make it easier for people that want to apply, so they know what to begin with and it is maybe not as overwhelming. I do have a desired starting order for the sunlight groups, as I'd prefer to start them in order of debut date. Produce R 101 will probably take a long time to fill up, but I'm filling that time with art and teasers once more apps come in. So if you need any guideline for what story to go for first, I'd say go for Necalli, then Adore and then Estrela, Produce R 101 can be thrown somewhere in between.

The other four stories will be brought back once these four are filled up, so that I have apps open for maximum four stories at a time for both my and my subscribers' ease. But of course, if you want to make an app for them in the meantime, I will still review it and love you for doing so (unless you plagiarize lol), I just won't be bumping and updating the four other stories constantly.

I hope that this will help both me and my subcribers and bump up the app amount and engagement that I'm getting, and that people won't get scared out of applying anymore. I know I used to go inactive at times, but now I am really trying my best to keep up my stories, because I just love doing applyfics so much. Last year I neglected my hobbies to try and get myself out there as fanartist in the esports world, and it was very unhealthy and stressful. Now applyfics are a joy, an escape, something that I can pour my passion into while also relaxing at the same time.

I know times have been hard with the virus and everything. I'm currently going through a stressful time as well with both work putting a lot of pressure on me and me having some personal family problems as well. Maybe this is why I'm so active here, because it makes me happy. I wish all of you a great day and hope that all of you are happy and healthy. I hope that this encouraged at least some of you to come by my stories and drop a character. Don't be scared to apply, I won't be neglectful of my stories anymore. It would be a shame if I neglected those little precious passion projects of mine.

Signing out,

Sien the 🤡