I'll have to quit. 

That's my first thought this morning when I was scolded, very badly by my boss. 

It was my fault. I don't blame my boss for that. She has the right to scold me and get mad at me because of my stupidity. 

I won't disclose what exactly happen but it was because of me. 

I decide that next week is gonna be my last week working. I am not competent enough to work. 

And I personally didn't think I'm ready to work yet. 

Actually, I want to talk about my mental health. My condition is worsening actually.🙂 

My anxiety appear everyday and I'm insomniac. I can't fall asleep at least until 3AM. My anxiety score had been too high. My migraine is making it's comeback. 

After my mistake few days ago, and my stupidity this morning, I realize that I'm not ready to work. I realize that I am not good enough and my confidence about working is nothing. I need to stop meeting people at this point. 

Seems like everything is my fault. I am the one to blame over everything. I am always at fault. No one is wrong. Only me is the odd one, always making mistakes and being stupid.