Jan 19, 2022

New Year, New Changes

Greetings:

Hello and happy new year, to anyone who reads this.

I came to realize that by the end of this new year, my account will be 10 years old. It was a little shocking to me and it dawn on me that it's really been that long since I joined aff. It was through aff that I realized I wanted to publish a book one day and even gave me confidence that one day I will be able to do it, but after all these years so much has happened and I'm close to reaching 30. It's so scary, because I still feel like I'm barely starting adulthood and so much I haven't been able to accomplish. I've learned so many things throughout those years, but what I've definitely learned recently is that I don't have to follow the same steps that everyone thinks one must take in order to be successful. I want to create memories and live a good life, not one that I feel will be right according to others and what job I should be getting and that I should only focus on certain things. School may not be for everyone and the way one grows is always different from others. Anyway, this year I definitely want to have new adventures and document them and watch myself grow even more and do things that will help me become a better person and heal.

K-pop fan and 2nd gen K-pop:

How long have you been a K-pop fan for? Thinking about this makes me feel so old, because it was the summer of going into my sophomore year in high school when I discovered K-pop, back in 2009. It all started with 2ne1, SNSD, Kara, Big Bang, etc. and those day were golden days. It's exiting to see how much K-pop has come but also really miss those days. I haven't really been listening or getting into the newer K-pop groups and so I feel so out of place, especially because I come to realize how much younger the idols are gettting and the fans. Sometimes I find it hard to connect and makes me miss the older groups even more. I'm so happy that idols are now able to announce their marriage and their future new borns and I hope k netizens take it more easy on them when they date and try to have a family.

Fanfiction and writing:

It feels like fanfic nowadays is not the same and the things I want to read are never popular. Especially my favorite ships. I used to enjoy reading about block b, specifically Zico, and about Lay, and namsong. And every time I want to write I never seem to fully go through it. It makes me sad that I thought I was doing a good job writing my fics but then lost motivation. But whenever I look back at them I get some sort of motivation and want to rewrite them. I think this year that is something I will do, especially my 2ne1 story because I am still such a huge fan and I cannot accept the fact that they're not together anymore. I hope that one day I can see them come back together and make music once again, so in the meantime I will work hard to rewrite my story The Intractable, for those who want to check it out and read it in the meantime.

Friends on aff?

I want to reach out to people and create more connections here. I made a few friends thanks to aff, but I hope I can make more and connect with other people who want to write. I've always wanted to write a good story with someone who shared similar likes and create something we both love. I still hope one day I'll be able to do that. In the meantime, if you want to say hi, comment what year you got into kpop, what group and your favorite fics to read? I'm looking forward to meeting new people and creating a fun place here on aff as I come back to being active.