Best friend

Lately i havent been in the mood to write. I just have an urge to just end my stories as i dont feel like myself anymore as well. I drown myself in work since my best friend passed of covid and she was pregnant and i had no way of contact her to say my last goodbye. I felt like i didnt get to say goodbye to her. Yall i would tell her about my writings to my stories or show her your comments about my stories. I just feel.sad and lost that she isnt here anymore with me. I lost a part of myself since the day she passed. She had been my best friend since kindergarden and now as adults in our mid 20s. I talked to her everyday and we would have our nightly chats since we lived far away from each other for a few years but yet we would always visit each other often. The last time i saw her was at her party i had somewhat planned with her and we left each other laughing. The last phone call i had with her and actually spoke with her, still haunts me as now as that was the last time i would ever talk with her. We would get so happy to go to kpop concerts and we would get so excited about concerts. Im just at that stage to where i get kinda sad when i listen to kpop songs that remind me of her. Kpop was a huge part of our lives. I just feel kinda empty. I know its supposed to take a while to get better

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Ana_Ana #1 Jan 15, 2022 10:39:32

Hi, I'm so sorry for your loss.🖤🖤🖤
I can't imagine your actual pain, nobody can. But I can imagine that it's definitely a very hard time for you since I've lost family members before.
From what you said I can imagine that your stories are like a link between you two, like a diary filled with good memories, I assume.
I'm sure she is happy that the last time you met each other left both of you with happy memories to last. Yeah, all those things will only make you sad now. I understand you would probably just want to run away from them.💔
I know it's a cliché, but time will heal, just because it does, it doesn't mean the scar would fade away, but it will become tolerable, trust me on this.😇 After a long time from now you will come back to those memories you had with her and you will be happy about them again.😇
Till that time I hope you take care and stay strong.🤍 From what you said about her, I'm sure that it would be what she also wishes for you.😇🤍🤍🤍
And remember you don't have to force yourself to write anything, for now, or maybe for quite a long time. I don't think you need to end anything either just let them be, just let them rest, it's alright.🤍
I hope she rests in peace, she was a mother after all, she has a special place in heaven I'm sure.🤍🖤🤍🙏🏻😇🙏🏻🤍🖤🤍

Wonderfulday #2 Dec 7, 2021 19:59:45

Hello, just read about your best friends, sorry for your lost.. I hope u will be ok soon, i know im not the right person to say like that, but just want to encourage u, everythig will be ok, yes, u will remember her forever, but soon, u will always remember everything happy with her only, let her in your heart forever, but u will still have responsibility for your life.. She will always with u, remember that, i dont force u to stay in aff, but u can take your time and rest a lot... Maintain your health. .. Just hope u dont delete this account and can come everytime u ready.. Im sorry if my word very harsh or rude, english not my first language... Sorry, but i hope u arre doing ok ^_^

thisishell #3 Dec 5, 2021 13:39:45

Hey... Hello
See I'm really sorry for your lost and seriously I can't relate with your feelings rn coz I've been This close with any of my friends ..yes I've long time friends but we're kind of distant now somehow that emptiness is making me understand your feelings . ..
So yeah TBH I'd disappointed if you delete your fics and account all together thn won't continue still i want you to know, as years long follower, that do whatever you're feeling to do
I, myself, am have been ignoring k-pop and k-ent for long time now(almost 2 years) and I've no right to suggest you anything otherwise since i read Still read fics
Anyways, you can discontinue your fics and add the tag with their titles(incomplete, discontinue etc) for current/future readers, I'd be glad if you keep the account and ..... .drop update about yourself when you feel okay ?
Dear i know it's hard but this damn virus isn't over yet so just keep going and be strong✊