I’m an Extrovert BUT I Feel Like an Outcast
Don’t get me wrong. I’m not weeping as I write this. It just makes me wonder a lot. Staying indoors started it, of course.
Lately, I’ve been seeing a lot of my friends hang out in groups. It’s not that I’m envious of them hanging out or that I feel bad about not being invited. I just can't help but ask myself, “If I were to go out like them, who would I hang out with?”
This question has been bothering me for months now.
I do have friends. I’m friends with everyone in general, but at the end of the day, I don’t have anybody whom I can call my “home friend,” maybe. I'm friends with everyone, but every time I find myself troubled or whenever I'm anxious about something, I don't know whom to approach.
I'm just wondering if it's just me. Or am I overreacting? It's been months (internally screaming), and I never talked about life or anything like it to anybody else aside from family. (As you can see, I’m ranting here instead of other social media platforms ㅋㅋㅋ)
(Though… I'm thankful for it-- somehow, because whenever I have thoughts that I can't share with people around me, I would resort to writing it down in fanfics >.<) It feels more open here than the actual world out there.
Am I overreacting? Or do I not have a social life at all? ㅠ_ㅠ