i'm not in a very good place but idk wtf i want to say i guess i originally wanted to just come on here and say that i think i'll be focusing a lot more on original fiction in the future because i love fanfic and i love kpop but i can't find it in me to like anything anymore. it also might be because i'm ing obsessed with zhou shen agh my boi please why is he so talented and so cute and so loveable and afghdfgdahaa.

in other words, i'm very ing tired and also negative and i want to snap and go on some monster-killing adventure and get hurt while doing it and complain but also feel more alive than i have in decades. i've only been alive for two decades but i want to feel something other than bitter disgust and disappointment. and yeah maybe i'm not doing so hot in school and maybe that's the direct cause of most of this but.

i'm so ing tired lmfao.

but pls check out my new obsession zhou shen

- boi's 28 he's a libra sept 29th

- he studied in ukraine (originally dentistry before switching to bel canto(?))

- in 2014 he went on the voice of china (eliminated :( and then he went back to ukraine lmfao) and when he graduated i'm pretty sure he came back to china

- his breakthrough was Big Fish 大鱼 (uh yes i am aware that i linked a bilibili link lmfao oops) from the movie Big Fish and Begonia

- now he's >:)))) VERY POPULAR! we're very proud of him

(and he's ing CUTE)

select discography (man releases songs like he only has two years left to live lmfao):

- boi's fluent in nine languages including ukrainian (and everyone knows japanese, right?)

- 起风了 / comment: most well-known cover (wu qingfeng) gives a feeling of having been through so much but zhou shen's version is hopeful for the future

- unravel / because Everyone Knows Japanese *sideeyes him*

- like i said, nine ing languages

- and also a weeb ahadsfhsa (达拉崩吧) <-- this is the cover that shot him to true popularity

- 雪落下的声音 / so why do i prefer this over the og LOL

- bilibili new year's / b-site uploader (VERY old and VERY not-often)

- 我，江湖 / my current obsession

- rubia / for yall honkai players out there