Honest Talk

 

I will just go straight to the point bcoz i don't have much to say actually.

 

I feel like leaving this site.

 

Honestly speaking i really love AFF. This place used to be my escape sanctuary, a place i can relay and honed my creativity and skills in writing. It's my passion and im glad i could share it with people that see my potential before i would make it big out there (hopefully if God's will it).

But i think i made some mistakes.....

I accidentally met few people that i shouldn't associate myself with and unfortunately it happened here, on this site. I feel divided to talk about it afraid that i might cause hurt/discomfort to others. So i keep it in, until it hurts me deeply. Until the pain that bubbling can't be contained and explode.

But when i think about my action and words might hurt people i realize that I'm hurting too.

I find that people is so hard to deal with. Especially those that put on the blame to others, people that only take granted of our presence, people that is bystanders. 

It's probably my lessons to learn but to experience it here in my sanctuary, makes me feel breathless and uncomfortable. This is no longer my sanctuary, this is like some place i just have to be

 

I love my stories and my readers. I met so many amazing people here. Probably that's the reason why it happened. It's a lesson to me that no one is good, you can't trust anyone blindly. 

I don't know. I just don't know what to do here anymore. 

 

If you've read until here without skipping thank you so much. I wish you well and health. The same goes to your family. I wish human can be kind, can be more thoughtful, the world can be a better place. Hopefully.

 

Until then,

-penguin.

 

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Eunhae86damnit #1
Please don't go. We love you 🥺 sincerely 💙
bummbleMin1004
#2
WHO THE ING HURT YOU THEY WILL ROT IN HELL!!!!!!
kireinakata #3
What happened? Are you okay? Let me give you a big virtual hug. I don't know you personally, but your story always makes me happy. I even re-read again and again. So many iKON's author leave this site. :(

Thank you for the happiness you gave to me. It's really means a lot.
ldh2013 #4
So sorry to hear that. I've been pulled in by your stories and made to react to them (even if it's just "what the !?!"), which shows just how good a writer you are. Trust is a hard thing. As we get older, we realize that trusting people and making friends is not so simple anymore. There are now levels of trust and levels of friendship and not all people are worth keeping. I come to this site to read stories that make me feel something, whether warm and fuzzy, or sad, or "OMG!" I appreciate anyone that can give me that.
rainbow-peach
#5
WHO HURT YOU. TELL ME. I SWEAR IM GOING TO GET THEM
Crazyness
#6
I think everyone will at least face with that situation once. Idk how other people will tell you but for me, as long as you don't associate with that person, I feel like there is no wrong with it. I also think the best way is to block them off. Sometimes is crucial but then it really is the bestest way to cut off the entire thing.

Don't blame yourself, really. There is once that I almost gone toxic but then there are many thing that let me gain my conscious back and decide to quit that toxicity and learn to stand in the neutral feeling to analyse everything. I want authornim, you, to think this as a part of life experience or journey, a part of life that you're still exploring. Only that, you will grow and be more mature in the future. Is ok to do wrong something, as long as you wake up and change it.

I hope my word can comfort you even tho is just have a small pinch of effect XD I wish you have a blessed year, stay healthy for both mentally and physically, stay happy and be positive! Hwaiting authornim! I love you as your supporter and will always support your writing! I hope you don't quit!