Honest Talk
I will just go straight to the point bcoz i don't have much to say actually.
I feel like leaving this site.
Honestly speaking i really love AFF. This place used to be my escape sanctuary, a place i can relay and honed my creativity and skills in writing. It's my passion and im glad i could share it with people that see my potential before i would make it big out there (hopefully if God's will it).
But i think i made some mistakes.....
I accidentally met few people that i shouldn't associate myself with and unfortunately it happened here, on this site. I feel divided to talk about it afraid that i might cause hurt/discomfort to others. So i keep it in, until it hurts me deeply. Until the pain that bubbling can't be contained and explode.
But when i think about my action and words might hurt people i realize that I'm hurting too.
I find that people is so hard to deal with. Especially those that put on the blame to others, people that only take granted of our presence, people that is bystanders.
It's probably my lessons to learn but to experience it here in my sanctuary, makes me feel breathless and uncomfortable. This is no longer my sanctuary, this is like some place i just have to be.
I love my stories and my readers. I met so many amazing people here. Probably that's the reason why it happened. It's a lesson to me that no one is good, you can't trust anyone blindly.
I don't know. I just don't know what to do here anymore.
If you've read until here without skipping thank you so much. I wish you well and health. The same goes to your family. I wish human can be kind, can be more thoughtful, the world can be a better place. Hopefully.
Until then,
-penguin.
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