these days i'm only here to update My Little Song Book whenever i completed a new translation....(which isn't even a fiction btw....i know...some people might be pissed off to look for a fic only to find a song lyrics translation compilation...sorry bout that, i closed my blog n had no other comfy place to compile all lyrics and notes and yeah....)

whenever i'm bored i'd reread my own old fics cuz i'm my biggest fan lol. and while there are fair share of embarrassment....it also makes me miss writing...i don't even know if i'd still be able to write...but these days i've been deliberating on continuing write from where i left for at least one or if lucky, a few of these fics especially(i mean, i have moreeee abandoned ones but can't possibly be thinking of going back to all lol)....but they've been abandoned for years....most likely there won't be reader...but more concerning is if i'd be able to get into the flow from where they're left hanging...(i did it once with S P E C T A C U L A R....continued it after one year abandonement and completed it...all thanks to one comment who got me back on track....but you see, that's one year abandonement...while these fics are ranging from 3-8++ years of abandonement...and that's....massive amount of detachment period. so will i be able to go back to at least either one? or none? who knows? maybe this will end up pointless dwelling afterall...or maybe i'll end up continuing fic that isn't even in this list if any. lol.

1.  보이스 2 : Tremor (트레모) - This was my own continuation of kdrama Voice after season 1(though they already had 3 seasons going on 4th soon, i detest the 2nd season so i'm doing my own...and i last stopped before introducing who's the sleazy but observant mysterious new character at the club...tbh, i even forgot who from which drama that character was planned to be at first...luckily after reading carefully i remembered who he's supposed to be....it's a character i adore from another of my fav drama...so...i'm thinking of continuing just to introduce who he is haa...but then what? i'm afraid i'd give false hope and get stuck again. i'm no crime writer so...this might be bigger than i could chew...

2. B U G - Tbh....this would be hard if i do continue it....it's one of my ambitious bizzare personal work...that i dedicate for my fav team in produce 101 season 2. i felt like i'd done so good(according to my taste/style) that i'm afraid of ruining it...i feel like...the philosophies incorporated here were all the things i felt strongly...even the things i felt about popular kids and underrated kids were poured into this. not sure if i have the confidence to possibly ruin it....afterall, i love me underdogs, and this story is about underdogs and dedicated to underdogs.

3. He Loves the Rain - this was a sequel to a oneshot i wrote (one less lonely night) ...a mix of restrained romantic angst that i love lol, my ship and also inspired by songs that just aided my writing pleasantly...and also a criticism/satire on idol industry(actually most of my fics with entertainment industry setup include this satire/criticism aspect). i just liked the pairing so much i'm afraid of messing up...

4. 천년가도 (Even If A Thousand Years Pass) - just because it's a poemfic and i kinda missed writing poems...but recently don't really have new inspirations...the problem with this fic is....there's too many constraints because of the formating...that i feel people can easily get lost and only i would understand what really happened since i write it lol. 

5. The Fine Arts of A Refined God - simply because this is probably the easiest to write since it's just a monologue/soliloquy type of fic ont the mind exploration of everybody's fav psychopath villain in Voice. it's me explaining his way of thinking and his justification on the sick evil things he did...but yeah....i wouldn't say it's much of a fic, neither did it had any plot...just....mind exploration. something like...diary entry? sort of.

6. Accidental Soulmates - this is your cliche crossdressing setup and rich and poor setup hohum...with some twists of course...and the original planning could spark some scandalous decisions even if i'd portray it in non scandalous approach...but since i haven't reached that far in the fic....so yeah...truthfully idk if i really wanted to continue this...but for the sake of 1-2 commentors who wanted the continuation...well, that's from long ago anyway so...

7. Guess Me, Baby - another of produce101 season 2 inspired fic for more of my lovable underdogs...i wished i could continue this...it's just that generating ideas are hard especially when it's so freaking hard to find anything on Pureboy, and even on the show it wasn't like seokyu n minho got much screentime and were eliminated early too...

8. Who Do You Think You Are? - an even cliche-er typical kinda fic...and one of my early ones...but for some reason...i keep thinking how nice if i could continue it for self satisfaction...maybe because it's sooo cliche/nothing special...that itself made it special. idk how i'd be able to match the writing style though because this was significantly different n more on the coarse side since it's one of my earlier works in this site

9. Of Beautiful Accidents and Hideous Fortunes - this is one fic i had forgotten...when i was playing around with setting random themes and formats. it had mystery and potential but man this had been so long how do i go back..i had even forgotten the intended answer to the mystery. i do like that this fic had the members being more diversified characters like office workers, police officers, convenience store staffs, etc.

10. INNOCENT - my attempt at a set of related oneshots with psychothriller setup/theme. it was supposed to have at least 7 oneshots since there are 7 members of the group and 6 tracks in the innocent album(much like S P E C T A C U L A R, it's meant to be each chapter based on a song and a member)...but i only published 2 so far and half written the third one i think....writing dark stories with psycho characters isn't easy i guess....but i just wish i could complete it...

11. Good Night, Sleep Tight - another oneshot collection. this one's oneshots were completely unrelated but were supposed to be carry one of the two characteristics - warm and fuzzy OR disturbing, i feel like this fic was where my ideas were most diversified and it was fun.but like i said it's not easy to rewind since this was quite long ago...

12. Maeng - tbh this was a last minute addition n probly most unexpected one to make the list, even for me lol...i mean i didn't even start post any chapters of this fic...just the prologue/intro...and this was supposed to be a spin off for Unlock the Devil Fourever which wasn't even a finished fic and by right...i should want to complete that fic first...especially since i killed so many characters already and of course the heroine deserved a closure after all the suffering n losses...but...idk...it got too hard hahahah....and Maeng was supposed to be centered on the Devil hunter's older sister(who's also a hunter, but a really minor character in Unlock...) and the uniquely angelic Devil she met and presumably killed based on what's revealed in Unlock... and i like the fresh and totally random pairing i'm going with this since i never wrote a fic with either group members as main characters. it's just that....i don't feel that comfortable to write of devils in fiction form since the fictional ones aren't 1/1000000 of real ones....and i kinda hate how we(myself included) romanticize something i shouldn't...lol.

13. and this isn't really an existing fic...i wish i could write a sequel for Mr. Romantic and Miss Popular. whenever i reread the fic...even though i was satisfied with my ending and thought it counts as 'happy ending'....i wonder if i could make the heroine get a 'happier' ending...i mean, i did toy with my readers' feelings by making most of the guys starting to like her and then pulled that ending...maybe i should've been a little bolder and actually chose one guy even if that'd ruin what i was going for, well, the fic ended with discussion on an 'aftershow'....so...it's not like it'[s impossible to make a sequel/continuation.

i wanted to make a poll to ask whoever reading this blogpost to choose one story based on my little description of them...or even randomly...but i'm kinda scared there'd be 0 votes. lmao. so i just decided to ramble on my own like this. i don't mind if anyone wanna throw in a vote for which fic you want me to continue the most....but tbh...i know the typical response would be i should write for myself, not depend on people's opinion when making decision, so i dare not ask since i'm not looking to be schooled here haa.

honestly i hate myself for kept starting wayyy too many fics in the past...whenever i'm hit with new ideas....tsktsktsk....in fact, i would probably add more candidates...if 12 isn't already ridiculous....sigh.

or should i just....start a new one and see how it goes?

pfft. yeah i'm mentally cursing myself too.

anyway, random but happy birthday moon leader xD

some of Junyoung's performances cuz....why the heck not....let's appreciate one of the bravest and most intiative and involved leader ever(involved and initiative as in, in forming his group n gathering members). as for brave, remember when he went public to fought his company? of course that might not be the smartest thing n he ended up at losing end but i guess we can/should agree that it's still a brave move on his end.

Aftermath solo (ft Dongjun as dancer, starting from this song's promo Junyoung didn't perform much with his group due to his injuries...so he had a whole solo stage for it like the boss he was n took the member with most singing part as his back dancer haha....xD....the maknaes love him lots anyway so pretty sure there's no issue) - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4URfZq9Zgws

Only One 4 U (duet with Taeheon - the school friends, and they both co composed and co wrote this song and this was one of my fav songs from all of ZE:A Five+ZE:A4U songs) - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MycdeEqd1CM

Junyoung live solo compilation Predebut - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w1ko3Tp4QYM

Run This Way(performed by half the group members, just sharing it since it's probly the most mysterious track they had performed since it was never released and it didn't seem like a cover too, or was it....idk, people were asking about it too n Kevin's birthday is up next in this same month xD....) - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=un3XeQKJFbU

back to the earlier rambling

since i'm already publishing this post...i need to make a point to at least choose one of the stories to really update. i mean, i need more fics to read too lol and i am my biggest fan afterall lol and not to mention none of my other fav fics have been updated anymore...if at least this story gets updated i'd be happy enough T^T...it's definitely one of my top fav fics. indeed friendship fics are the best....even my other top fav fic was of a pure friendship....