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yeon boreum

 

i thought it would be okay now, but it started again.
when will I be able to escape...
a feeling of expectation and disappointment.
i seem to be getting tired more and more.

[  ]

 

they say that life is not about avoiding the rain,
but about learning to dance in the rain
so let's try to dance until the end

[  ]

 

yeon boreum and ethan kang

 

you were the sea and i was the cliff
while my heart is broken by you,
all i can do is just take a quiet back step
love was to withdraw from you every day

[  ]

 

i learned love because of you
you learned love because of me
what we got from each other is different, 
but because we learned from each other,
i wonder if we can mature now.

[  ]

 

yeon boreum and chae younghwa

 

if i were someone's first love,

i wish i didn't cause that kid too much hurt

[  ]


i fell in love as soon as i saw you
thanks to you, i knew the feeling of liking someone
i also knew that my cheeks could turn red
thank you, my first love

[  ]

 

scroll to the right on the love interest section for love story and interactions since it makes it more organized when split into two sections like that.

trigger warning: mentions of ptsd, ptsd triggers, depression,

attempted suicide by medicine overdose

 

background
 

yeon boreum
 

BIRTH NAME
연보름, yeon boreum

NICKNAMES

❍ BOREUMSSEU

having a first name that can't be comfortably derived in any way, boreum's peers, family (specifically imilar aged cousins and older brother), and friends alike resort to adding the "-sseu" suffix when calling her name as a form of endearment. it's something that's often done by koreans to sound "hip" or "swag". 

보름쓰

❍ YEOBO
the nickname her best friend has come to call her as it bears similarity to her surname and first syllable ("yeon" and "bo"). it was also the nickname her ex-boyfriend called her. now that he's an ex, boreum has told her best friend to limit the use of this nickname. 여보

❍ GISELLE, MY GISELLE

what a certain painting major saved her contact details as in his phone and calls her as to . 지젤, 나의 지젤

 

BIRTHDATE

april 1st, 1992

AGE 29 (30 in korean)

BIRTHPLACE

jongno-gu, seoul, sk.

HOMETOWN

jongno-gu, seoul, sk.

ETHNICITY korean

 

LANGUAGES

❍ FLUENT KOREAN

self explanatory and doesn't have a satoori to her speech as she was born and raised in seoul.

❍ PROFICIENT BRITISH ENGLISH
as she was preparing to study abroad in the united kingdom, boreum had her fair shares of english private tutors. she successfully got into the school she wanted and since then, her english became more natural in the grammar, pronounciation and choice of words.

 

OCCUPATION former ballerina. technically, currently unemployed.

 

FACECLAIM
shin hyesun, actress.

BACKUP
seohyun, snsd, actress.

 

MEASUREMENTS
170 cm, 55 kg.

 

APPEARANCE
no difference from her faceclaim when she potrayed the role of yeon seo in angel's last mission: love.

 

STYLE

elegant formal two pieces, comfy home jumpsuits or pajamas, block heels, hair let down or in a ballerina bun (out of habit), hair pins or headbands, the scent of lavender, stud earrings, trousers, blouses, off-shoulder tops, blazers, flowy skirts and sweaters.
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PERSONALITY

 

responsible, purposeful, patient, big-hearted 

❍ ISTJ-T, 1W9, GRYFFINDOR,ARIES  

no-nonsense, worrisome, unrevealing, aloof

 

there is a graceful elegance in yeon boreum that catches the glances of those around her. even without the frame of a ballerina, she had always been such a presence and with good reason as she had always been an individual who was able to bear the responsibilities put upon her and the ones she chose for herself. she took everything that was on her plate seriously and put her all into them. she's dead serious about her work and passions.

 

boreum, once she puts her mind to it, reaches for the stars and won't let anything get into her way when it comes to her goals and ambitions. she doesn't sway and keeps trying her best, channeling her energy. it's always a memorable part of her character as she wouldn't let anything bring her down and when there's an obstacle in her way, she knows how to handle them with patience. she knows not to get enveloped by emotions and tries to look at things calmly.

boreum is known to have a big heart or even, a heart of gold as she always seems to see the best in others and has a likeable aura to her. she is kind and many can back her up. even with a harsh and cut-throat environment of training, boreum knew how to be the bigger person and forgive and forget until... everything in her world crashed down on her.

the life-changing incident caused her whole personality to flip, making her negative traits magnified to others. well, she's always had these shortcomings but after since she couldn't win over them, those weaknesses of her seemed more visible than ever. her no-nonsense approach to every task seemed like a good way of organizing and getting things done quickly but nobody could deny that sometimes, her words and attitude hit the bullseye and were ruthless, businesslike in a sense. ever since her fall, she seemed to always answer or talk to people with only the matter-of-fact to which she would sound a bit blunt or acerbic.

but then, other would recall the first time they saw boreum and knew that she was an introvert. how could she not? she was a foreign student in a foreign country despite how well she was at the language or her area of study. boreum always seemed to keep herself before getting accustomed to those around her. people only seemed to catch her around after she had grown closer to others and they forgot that she was, in fact, this person who enjoyed being in her own company and was distant. it's because she's always had to be someone for herself independently. she wanted to rely on herself for everything, not wanting to live up to the misunderstandings of coming from a rich household.

however, it still shows sometimes when boreum tends to keep her cards close to her chest (or maybe, in her pockets). she knew how to open up, yes, but she found that the first step to doing so had always been hard. it went against her defense mechanism of keeping to herself. she found it hard to reveal herself to others and this originated from her inner worries. she continues to hold certain thoughts of what could have, what if, what should or should not, what has to be,, what would, and so more. she wasn't constantly uneasy, only occuring whenever she ticks something off her to-do list or finishes a task.

what if i lose my purpose? then, what do i do? 

 

BACKGROUND

the story of boreum's life is quite famous through whispers on the streets of south korea. she is the daughter of a retired ballerina turned college professor and her well-to-do entrepreneur husband. her brother is a charming, nice-looking office worker. boreum is the pride of the household or perhaps even the country, performing as a ballerina overseas.

 

well, was.

 

she was a ballerina who had enrolled in the royal ballet school in the united kingdom since she was sixteen after being accepted via the audition process that's said to be cut-throat. she underwent the rigorous training in one of the world's hardest ballet schools. she pursued obtain a bachelor of arts degree in classical ballet and dance performance, much like her peers of the upper school. 

 

she went on to join the birmingham royal ballet while juggling a two-year part time course in diploma of dance teaching. her life was on a high full of prestige, achievement and dilligence; one that others would've expected from a ballerina. she was doing what she loved, making her family and country proud, got along with her fellow ballerina and ballerinos while maintaining a three year relationship.

 

yet, you may ask at this point, where did it all go wrong?

 

she was twenty eight. daily life was unfolding per the usual for boreum, receiving final hair and makeup touches as it was a few minutes before the curtains rose on the night of the "swan lake" performance and she finished the first act safely. nothing was going wrong until she had to step backstage with no backstage personnel lighting her way to assist her and that's when it happened.

 

she fell as she miscued her step. it was from a height of nearly two metres. all because there were personnels neglecting their duties towards the dancers.

 

all her life's work gone just like that in a matter of seconds in the darkness.

 

her parents quickly boarded a plane to the united kingdom, ready to let out lawsuits. they won, that was not a surprise but what about boreum?

 

she injured her forehead and chin as well as fractures to her left ankle, left wrist and lower back. it would take an estimate of eighteen months before she can get back to normal form and it broke her heart, mind and soul. not even her older brother or best friend could cheer her up.

 

her boyfriend she was living together with? he couldn't bear the responsiblities and the aftermath of the incident on boreum's mentality. in his exact words, "it's as if the light in her eyes wasn't there, as if yeon boreum just shut down and fled from the world." he left her, telling her he didn't want to add to her burdens and leaving her so that she can recover was his decision. this broke her heart more.

 

eighteen months passed and boreum now returned to korea not being even half the person she was when she left for the royal ballet school. everything had changed for her and those around her understood but then, perhaps she figured that they knew from ethan that she had been diagnosed with ptsd and depression after discharging from the hospital so they would've done so for her sake out of consideration.

 

she didn't want to give up on herself. she attempted to gave up once back in london when ethan was working, swallowing whatever pill in amounts she didn't count. after that attempt, she remembered ethan, dodam, inah... everyone. ethan was just in time to take her to the nearest emergency ward. so, this time, now in korea, she needed to distant herself to handle and face the lingering scars of the incident by herself. she just has to find a way to be able to do so.

 

she wants to live like she did before. she wants to get better. she would tell her brother as she hugged him after he picked her up from the psychiatrist, "i don't want to die just yet. i'm not even half the person i was before."

 

that's how her best friend, with the permission of her parents, introduced her to the apartment being leased out by yang ahreum. inah knew as much boreum did that she couldn't keep living together with her brother (as they both assumed he was dating someone behind their backs).

 

"hey, boreum, i think you should try and start a new here. it's a pretty good offer. of course, you don't need to do it but just promise me you'll read it at the least..."

LIKES

❍ lavenders

❍ peonies

❍ hot chocolate

❍ vanilla ice cream
❍ iced americano
❍ the color lilac
❍ the smell of cinnamon
❍ caesar salad

 

DISLIKES

❍ all types of shellfish due to an allergy

❍ jalapeno

❍ wasabi

❍ the smell of nicotine
❍ grilled beef intestines
❍ beetroot
❍ blood sausage
❍ spicy food

 

HABITS

❍ caressing her ear or piercings when nervous

❍ having good posture whenever and wherever she goes

❍ always seems to have a pen and some wet wipes in her bag

❍ stretches her knuckles or neck every so often 

❍ washes her hands before eating her meals

 

HOBBIES

❍ reading books, especially non-fiction

❍ watching thriller, crime, sci-fi or action films

❍ yoga

❍ listening to music, especially r&b and acoustic
❍ journaling

 

FEARS

❍ claustrophobia

❍ being paralyzed

❍ being forgotten

❍ bleeding a lot (or too much) blood

❍ heights, after her fall

 

MISC

❍ has an iphone 11 pro max in matte space grey

❍ left-handed

❍ she takes a while to reply because she thinks a lot about what to reply 

❍ hates people who smoke without thinking about those around them
❍ other than her most recent ex, she's had three other boyfriends
❍ she's a bit iffy about tattoos
❍ not a big fan of junk food or take-out food
❍ she's more used to western-style breakfast
❍ avoids eating too much rice in a week
❍ still quite conscious about her weight
❍ does have a journal that she doesn't tell people the content (it's an art journal where she does write about her day or draw out her feelings)
❍ not the most eager to drink as alcohol would tip the numbers on her scale in the past so she had always restricted herself a lot
❍ with that said, she loves to binge on whiskey, bourbon and red wine when she's feeling sad.
❍ doesn't have a driver's license but it doesn't matter because she doesn't know how to drive.
❍ is a homebody.
❍ loves cats, was a cat parent back when she was in london.
❍ used to love watching musicals but now, she hates them because they remind her of something she could've had.
❍ always seems to be immersed in her airpods as if she's in her own world
❍ lights up scented candles every so often for ambiance
❍ was diagnosed with ptsd and depression after being discharged from the hospital, therefore visits the psychiatrist every two weeks and is on medication for it
❍ her possible triggers include heights or high places, classical music, blackouts, anything related to "swan lake"
❍ enjoys reading books and used to have her own shelf back in london
❍ is actually good at giving advice when she's become really comfortable
❍ hates stairs since sometimes, she can feel a pull or a sting on her lower back

LIFESTYLE

even if she's unemployed, she still has her own routines that need to be fulfilled and certain habits that she continues even after the fall. every day, she'll wake up at eight thirty in the morning to stretch for an hour before taking a bath and having breakfast. on tuesdays and thursdays, she replaces this with an one hour walk outside. on mondays, wednesdays and fridays, she goes to her psychiatrist at one o'clock for two hours while on tuesdays and thursdays, she has her physiotherapy session for one and a half hours. she'll usually spend the time before and after these events inside, journalling or watching or lying down while listening to music playing over her bluetooth speaker (when she's in the apartment, over her airpods).

the weekends are for her time to meet her brother or best friend. they are perhaps the only reason why she'll ever go out on the weekends. she'll only go outside to buy a new book when she finishes reading one and for a morning walk.

YEON MYUNGHO, LEE BORAM
연명호, 이보람
58 & 55 y.o., ceo of seafood restaurant franchise and fine arts professor, parents
 
her parents' great attention and constant support towards her might have originated from the fact that she's the youngest child and the only daughter. they want her to be able to carry out their so-called "legacy", especially her mother who became a professor after retiring from the ballet foundation.
 
of course, that was before her literal fall. her parents were as devastated as boreum was and after seeing boreum slowly distancing herself from the world and locking herself in her room, they kept their distance. they were heartbroken to see their daughter become not even half of the person she was. they silently support her from behind as they put some money in her pockets monthly even without her asking and often asks her brother or best friend for updates on boreum.
 
they long for the day she heals completely and for the chance to just sit down together at the same dining table. that's the least they can wish for at this point.
YEON DODAM
연도담
31 y.o. ('90), investment manager at a start-up,
older brother
 
yeon dodam is a fool for his sister and grew up becoming the brother who would take care of her well even if he loved to pick on her. in his mind, only dodam can pick on his sister so anyone else who tries will have to face him. yes, he's protective of her but that's also because she started living overseas since a young age so it can be well said that it's all becaause he's concerned and worried about her. in his eyes, boreum's still a little kid and perhaps, will always still be.
 
even more so after her fall. he stepped up to take care of her. when her now ex-boyfriend showed signs of wanting to leave her, dodam stepped up to pick his sister up and bring her back to south korea. she deserves better and dodam will make sure that his sister gets back to become the person that glowed so brightly she was.
BANG INAH
방인아
29 y.o. ('92), finance manager at rom&nd korea,
best friend

having left korea to study abroad, there were limitations for boreum to maintain her friendships in korea but bang inah was an exception. she was persistent and kept in contact with boreum through e-mail, postcards on the holidays, and simple texts or calls. she's the only friend boreum had in korea, after all the other kids didn't really keep in contact with her.

inah is her source of gossip, comfort, and fun. her best friend always seemed to have something to talk about or share. boreum appreciated inah's attempts to include her or give her a look into her life with stories of her club activities, classmates, and seniors. it'd become stories of her supervisor and co-wokers after she graduated. boreum, when she goes back to korea occasionally for the holidays, would always make time to see her best friend and just relax with inah by her side.

after the fall, inah managed to join the team that had a business trip to london so that she can extend her trip to see her friend. she was worried, of course. boreum remembered the look of despair on inah's face as she stood there and cried. inah knew how much this destroyed her and no enough amount of words can describe how thankful boreum is to inah as she helps her adapt to life in seoul and actually life in general. having inah by her side makes things less painful.
ETHAN KANG EUTTEUM
강으뜸
27 y.o. ('94), assistant brand manager at bobbi brown london, ex-boyfriend

 

hearing ethan's name still makes boreum's heart ache even after all the months that have passed since their break-up. he's the one amongst all her previous boyfriends that she hurt the most. he's, in korean terms, her "sore finger" that always makes her feel bad and thankful at the same time. she loved him the most with all her heart, after all.
 
they dated for three years after meeting each other at a social party through mutual friends. at the time of boreum's fall, they had been living together for seven months. ethan had always been kind, soft and energetic like a puppy and he always gave her strength. he always sent flowers on days she performed and would sometimes lend his card for her to treat her colleagues. he was perfect for her and to ethan, boreum was also everything he's been searching for. he fell in love at first sight, he'd tell her when he confessed to her. 

so, when she fell and became not even half of what she was before, ethan was as sad as she was. boreum still remembered hearing him cry as he held her hand at the hospital. he doesn't know that she hears his cries at night. he ached to see her broken and he nursed her after boreum was discharged from the hospital but he was concerned. she didn't say a word, writing her sentences on paper and nodding to yes or no questions. she locked herself in their room after he went off to work and he felt the absence of her warmth as he backhugged her when he goes to sleep. she grew distant and he knew he had to let her go for her sake.
 
she knew it, too. she knew she upset him a lot with her detached behavior but she couldn't bear to say a word. whenever he embraced her before or after work, she felt it. she was hurting him but he was being considerate of her condition and kept it to himself. she couldn't deny she loved him whenever they lie together in bed hand-in-hand, his arms around her waist whenever they sleep but as she said to him one day, "i'm sorry for putting you through the pain. i'm the bad one. hate me all you want." no matter how much ethan denies it, they both knew it inside. they were tired. she was tired of what she's become and he was tired of being patient with her. he just couldn't admit it out loud. boreum still remembers his sad eyes as he tried to hold her hand, "you know i can't hate you or blame you for it all. we both know that."

and to be honest, boreum knows that's true.

HOW WOULD YOU ACT AT A PARTY? CAN YOU HANDLE ALCOHOL?

"a party... i usually hold myself back a lot and stay at the sidelines while guarding the table. my body had always been my everything so i try not to indulge in alcohol and parties as often as other [korean] peope. i can handle about two bottles of soju and i'm out but other hard liquors, i can handle up to three glasses."

 

WHAT WOULD YOU DO WHEN YOU FIRST MEET SOMEONE?

"bow, shake hands... introduce myself to them. is there anything else needed to be done? if they don't seem like the type to share a chit-chat, then i won't bother them."

 

HOW WILLING ARE YOU TO DO CHORES?

"i'm willing to clean dishes, put clothes in the washing machine and fold them. i'm currently incapable to do chores that need movements like cooking or mopping or sweeping... due to personal reasons."

 

WHAT ARE YOUR PREFERRED LIVING CONDITIONS? WHAT TYPE OF HOUSEMATE ARE YOU?

"i'm rather laidback. i don't really make a fuss of the conditions but... i would appreciate if others were informed of my... physical limitations. i prefer to wake up early and go to sleep early so i hope nobody is too bothered with that. also, perhaps a space big enough for a yoga mat for when i need to stretch my body. that would be enough for me."

 

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF TWO OF YOUR HOUSEMATES FIGHT?

"since i'm not the strongest person, i'd try not to get tangled in any physical engagement. i'll try to figure out a way to make them stop fighting for a moment, separate them somehow so they can calm down and then try to mediate the situation from there."

 

WHAT IS YOUR IDEA OF HAVING FUN WITH OTHERS?

"fun? that's quite a broad category, isn't it? for me, to have fun is to enjoy the people you surround yourself. if you enjoy the company, you'd enjoy the activity no matter what the time or weather. nowadays, just having heartfelt and insightful conversations while doing a sleepover with my best friend is enough for me... big crowds were never really my thing."

 

WHAT PISSES YOU OFF IN LIFE?

"a lot does... bad people, you know, people who seem to enjoy seeing others suffering and others hurting. toxic people, in nowadays term. also, anything that feels or sounds fake. comfort, words, actions... anything fake just irks me."

 

WHAT TYPE OF SLEEPER ARE YOU? HOW IS YOUR SLEEPING SCHEDULE?

"i'm not sure but i think i'm a quiet person even in my sleep. i don't snore or babble but i do twist or turn my body a lot."

 

HOW DO YOU RELIEVE STRESS ON THE DAILY?

"that's an interesting question. read a book, paint, coloring books, yoga or pilates... but usually, i just try to find things to do at home. i rarely go out."

 

WHAT ARE YOUR CURRENT GOALS? DO YOU HAVE  A LIFE MOTTO YOU STAND BY?

"there's a lot short-term goals that i'm putting for myself. to get better inside and out... to be able to get back up again... to forget the past. for my motto... if it comes, let it. if it goes, let it."
 

WAIT, WE FORGOT AN IMPORTANT QUESTION: HOW DID YOU DISCOVER THIS APARTMENT?

"ah... it's a long story but... well, my best friend introduced me to the vacancy after i... had personal issues with my previous living arrangements."

BIRTH NAME 채영화, chae younghwa

BIRTHDATE june 20th, 1996

AGE 24, turning 25 (turning 26 in korean)

BIRTHPLACE & HOMETOWN gangwon-do, sk.

ETHNICITY korean

 

OCCUPATION painting major, final year university student, freelance painter

FACECLAIM  kang tae oh (backup: lee dohyun)

 

PERSONALITY

 

quick-witted, adjustable, outgoing, communicative

❍ ENFP-T, 2W3,HUFFLEPUFF, GEMINI  

impulsive, flighty, overly analytical, meddlesome

 

it's rather easy for one to summarize chae younghwa after they hear his zodiac sign; he's a true gemini with his social butterfly tendencies and curiosity to the world. he always tries to hold a conversation or two (or three or more) with anyone about anything, his mind going wild at the possiblities he can learn or absorb from other people. he's just versatile that way and his classmates would joke that he's not a social butterfly but perhaps, a chameleon instead. he always puts in a confident front to others and seems to be able to let people into the discussion. he may not seem like it but he actually considers others and takes care of those that seem to be distant or quiet from the chit-chat.

 

again, chae younghwa's a true gemini. he keeps thinking, burrying himself in possible questions from a question that has an answer. he sometimes gets lost and overcomplicates things but then, when he gets fed up with thinking and analysing something, he just acts on a whim or impulse that he'd dub "a gut feeling". there's no middle in younghwa's mind; it's either too much thinking that causes him to be hesitant to decide on big decisions or too little thought that causes him to change his mind in an instant. perhaps, this is the reason why he has trouble completing a painting and leaves things to procrastinate. he cannot commit to a thought, a responsibility and perhaps a relationship. it doesn't help that despite not knowing how to exactly complete a task, he'd always try to pry into others as he wants to know everything about anyone closest to him. this tendency of him is one that his best friend would dub "something worth of a slap on the head".

 

BACKGROUND

chae younghwa's life is a rather simple one. the youngest of three brothers, he was always able to do whatever he wanted. his parents run a he didn't have to be academically stunning or perhaps athletic. he could be who he was. chae younghwa is the student that sat at the back of the class and always seemed to be absent in doodling (in his own words, he says he's "decorating") on his notebooks and textbooks or stealing some extra sleep. he seemed like he slacked off but he always seemed to get decent results so he was always envied (or more accurately, chaffed him) by his friends who also sat at the back row.

 

what his schoolmates couldn't deny was his artistic touch. younghwa could make even a doodle of his seatmate or his teacher to be a well-made, instagram-worthy piece of art. he was more eager to have his hands tainted by paint and have the smell of oil paint linger by him rather than sweat or engage in a few competitive rounds of soccer or basketball with the fellow male students. he enjoyed painting for what reason, you may ask? he loved drawing as a kid, expressing his gratitude or love for his family through it and he remembered the sense of achievement when he won the drawing contest as a kid growing up. a reason so simple that directed him to see paintings as the purpose he needed to fulfill in his life.

so, that was how younghwa realized his passion and ambitions in-that brought him to where he is now; a final year painting major whose completed his military service and just needs to graduate by any means.

THEIR STORY

❍ LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT 

younghwa could remember clearly how he first got a glimpse of yeon boreum. it was when he was setting up a painting he painted for the cafe that was located in the same building as boreum's physiotherapist. boreum was having a cup of coffee as she had finished her rehabilitation session. she was sitting in the table that was right in front of the display area. younghwa tapped her shoulder, noticing she wouldn't hear him due to her airpods. 

 

"i'm sorry, but can you stand up from a bit? it wouldn't take long, though! don't worry about it. it'll only take a minute. or two," younghwa told her with a big grin. boreum nodded and stood up from her seat. he was right, he didn't take long to display his painting. 

 

however, boreum was horrified at his painting. how could she not? his painting was clearly his own interpretation of "swan lake". she felt herself start to tremble, her posture start to stagger and her breathing started to become rapid and deep. younghwa was surprised but despite getting caught off guard, his quick wit helped him recover and he managed to calm her down as he helped her to her seat. 

younghwa managed the situation well and after a few minutes, boreum was composed again as she turned to him and apologized for causing a fuss. with his big grin, younghwa cooed, "it's no problem, really, we humans just have to stick together and help each other out." boreum found his words hopeful and that's when she said a sentence she never knew she'd say.

"since i feel very bad, i'll buy you a meal right now..."
 

as if he had been waiting for the pause from boreum, he told her, "chae younghwa. that's my name."

 

"yeon boreum. nice to meet you, chae younghwa."

 

but honestly, if you ask younghwa, he'd tell you that he had his eyes on her since he spotted her at the cafe. what happened afterwards was just a coincidence.

 

❍ PURSUING GISELLE 

after earning a meal from her, younghwa continued his advances. when they were going to part ways, he gave her his number as he said, "who knows, maybe you'll need someone when the triggers go off." younghwa seemed strange to boreum or was it because it was a long time since she met someone out of her circle who was this extroverted? he failed to get answers from her, not knowing just how unrevealing boreum is but he was oddly competitive. he wanted to know things about her, especially about the triggers that caused her state of panic but that day, younghwa understood that there was always next time and when that next time comes, he'll be prepared.

 

he asked the cafe employees about her, getting to know about her schedule and tried to pretend to bump into her, making up all these different (yet in no way, credible to boreum) when he sees her. she's reluctant to be friendly with him but she did admit that he was relentless in person and in text. she seemed to hate how easy it was for younghwa to have this amiable air to him and that's when she realized that was just her soul envying him as it reminded of how she was in the past. he reminded her of a piece of her she had forgotten and deep down, she thanked him for it.

so, boreum let him be to do whatever he wants. somehow, it reminded her of ethan, of the good old days since she keeps seeing ethan in younghwa and she knows that's wrong. she can't do that to younghwa as in her eyes, he's just trying to befriend her and she actually liked the banter. he had no filter when around her and it somehow sparked something inside her so in her no-nonsense manner, she told him once when they were in the cafe, "you remind me of someone i love or loved a lot, you know... my ex." younghwa felt the world shatter. he knew there had to be a catch in whatever he was doing.

"[it] must've been a tough breakup," he simply said, trying to get her to tell her more indirectly.

"only because we broke up when we still loved each other a lot. [i] still can't forget about it. [it's] tough to do so when you're all messed up inside," she answered.

 

"what if i help you forget?" would be his answer that'll gain a look of disgust from boreum but younghwa couldn't let boreum see through him (for once) so he told her, "aren't we all messed up in our own way?"

 

❍ DOES FIRST LOVE EVER COME TRUE? 

the two continued to be this tug of war, a banter-full "friendship" with younghwa as her first new friend in korea. they hang out about three times a week and he always walks her to the door of the house. of course, there were days when he was the one that drank too much and had to be escorted by boreum out of the place. they had fun and spending time with younghwa gave boreum a lot of positivity to write down as the younger male was able to get her to see the bright side of things and keep her excited. she realized a lot of things about herself through him and was able to tell him anything, considering he's more available or flexible compared to her brother or even inah.

 

younghwa's feelings towards boreum only intensified as their relationship or so-called friendship continued. he knew he was being too obvious but of course, boreum didn't seem to notice (everyone but her has) he really felt like he cracked the code surrounding who yeon boreum was and is and in addition to that, she was the new muse to the painting he was starting. of course, that wasn't long before a small ripple created a big wave into their relationship.

"ethan is in seoul," was her simple text to him one night. seeing the text made his heart race and his feet seemed to have a mind of its own. she wasn't answering her texts or calls. what would happen if she met that ex of hers? younghwa didn't know what to answer exactly but he knew it'd be bad for his odds.

 

finally, after four hours, he got a call back from her but the voice speaking to him was not boreum as they said, "boreum's fine, she's asleep. thank you for the concern but you don't need to worry anymore." younghwa cursed under his breath as he realized that that must've been the ethan kang, her ex.

it was in that moment that he also realized that he was doomed. no matter how much he's poured into taking care of boreum and looking out for her, she's yet to move on from ethan kang, a name he's so used to hearing at this point that he was sick of it. it dawned on him that night as he lied down sleepless on his bed, was this how the second leads in dramas felt?

 

❍ THANK YOU FOR LIKING ME 

boreum met ethan that night after getting the text from the man himself. he was at the children's playground near the house. she knew without a doubt that this was the combined doing of dodam and inah. he looked just as he was before; the soft eyes, the youth in his smile, the hairstyle he's kept ever since she told him which one looked better on him, his dimples and the lingering scent of his perfume. their eyes met and in that moment, boreum saw something she never thought she'd see again. ethan was in tears.

 

"y-yeobo... you look amazing," he said in english. the familiar nickname tugged her heart strings.

boreum also felt tears overwhelming her eyes. she finally met him in a more stable state. she got to a better place than when he left and for her, there's only more better and higher places to achieve from here.

"i-i'm better now, not perfectly fine but i'm getting there..." he ran to her and it felt like forever since she was in his arms. she forgot how great it felt, especially when she's crying and he's patting her on the back. boreum just kept bursting into endless tears, perhaps a accumulation of the pain she's been holding back.

 

ethan wiped her tears away, his still flowing as he smiled through them. he kept calming her down and even, he whispered to her, "gosh, everyone would think we're a bit... crazy." boreum slapped his back at his remark at such timing. it was much like him.

 

"ethan...i'm hungry," she meekly whispered to his ear. he smiled to her. "you can sleep in my hotel room after we get late night snacks, okay?" boreum nodded. this was the chance she's been waiting for to reconcile with ethan again and talk things over. this was it.

 

the lengthy and many conversations the two shared was blurry at the end of the night but boreum remembered that they've caught up on things and they know about each other's lives. she even revealed her current conditions, to which ethan admitted was better and he wondered if it's partially thanks to boreum's housemates. the following morning, she woke up face-to-face with ethan (fully clothed) in his arms and she couldn't deny the warmth and flutters inside her chest. she clearly recalled the thought that popped into her mind as she saw ethan's sleeping face, "i love him."

 

"i'm here to stay by your side, my dearest love, i won't let you go ever again i've missed you so much," he whispered, still half-awake.

 

"thank you for liking me at my worst, ethan kang. now, it's time for you to love me at my recovery pace."

 

ethan chuckled at the unexpected remark and boreum yearned for more mornings like this.

 

❍ WELL, I GUESS MINE DIDN'T TOO 

younghwa remembered the day when she told him that she had reconciled her relationship with ethan and had been hanging out with him during his stay in seoul. she said something along the lines that meeting ethan again helped her find strength to manage her triggers and not avoid them. her face had happiness written all over it. he was devastated inside. he told her he only agreed to meet her that day because he had something to give to her. after all, he knew this would be the day when he let go of his first love.

 

yet, younghwa knew that in order to have no regrest, he had to give his all to the very last moment. that'd mean even in parting ways. he gave her a painting he'd been working on, saying that she was the muse of this piece. boreum opened it and it was his interpretation of what she'd look like in black swan, overcoming the black swan to become the white swan ("i didn't make the white swan too obvious because of your trigger so i changed it to giselle, instead since... i call you giselle all the time," he explained to her).

 

boreum was overwhelmed, his painting touched her heart as it perfectly depicted her inner struggles after the life-changing fall. she quickly wiped her tears as she didn't want any tears to fall on the painting and ruin it. younghwa's painting was beautifully perfect.

"boreum noona, giselle, my giselle, i want to tell you today that i actually like you a lot. i just never wanted to say it out loud because i'm scared but i don't want to regret anything," he told her as he looked into her eyes. she seemed taken aback at his confession, not able to utter a sentence in response to it.

"younghwa, i-i didn't know. i-i'm sorry," she told him.

"you don't have to apologize because it's not your fault you didn't know. it's mine because i kept it inside for too long. i hope someday, we can cross paths with each other even if it's by accident and smile at each other because i don't want you to feel bad about it."

 

younghwa's heart was aching as he continued.

 

"they say that first loves are never meant to come true and... well, i guess mine didn't too," he bursted into tears and tried his best to wipe them quickly with a napkin before continuing, "so, even if we part ways today, we stay friends in memory or in a reachable distance at least and i wish you only the best and i sincerely hope you get better because i don't want people i care about to be living miserably. i hope you live a great life from now on because like in this painting, you did that on your own. not me, not ethan."

"thank you, chae younghwa, for being my first new friend after being back in korea. everything was great." boreum still felt emotional and so did younghwa.

"thank you, yeon boreum, for being my first love. it was all something beautiful to me. take care."

 

ENDING

in the future, younghwa receives a flower bouquet with a handwritten card from boreum as she appears with inah on the day of his university graduation ceremony and perhaps since then, inah, boreum and younghwa become their own three musketeers or holy trinity. a few years later, whatever younghwa may be up to, he gets a wedding invitation from groom-to-be ethan kang and bride-to-be yeon boreum. boreum still has the painting younghwa painted of her and will display it in the living room of her newlywed house (with ethan's permission as he's relieved with the fact that boreum came back to him even if a young, handsome guy like younghwa had liked boreum in the past).

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SIRIUS-, SILVI, 78%

 

HER DIRECTION

her story arch would definitely be centered around her recovery and how she gets back into form or actually, how she can finally accept what happened and bury the scars forever. considering her personality, yes, she's patient but the uncertainty and her no-nonsense attitude has led her mental health to be quite unstable so it'd be nice to see her heal as she's surrounded by people and re-discover her determination that caused her to reach her initial goals.

yes, she'll be aloof and not reveal much to others at first but it'll dawn on her that she's slowly intergrating herself again and she doesn't feel awkward being around people anymore and before you know it, she'll be enjoying being around the housemates.

 

also, since she's currently unemployed, the story may help her decide on what she wants to do next. she could easily put her diploma of dance teaching into usage or she could perhaps have closure in one last performance of the "swan lake" that she never completed (since she fell in the first act).

 

COMMENTS

i'm surprised at myself since i flushed out that many paragraphs for boreum's personality and gave the bare minimum for younghwa, i apologize but i hope you liked reading through her app and if you have anything to ask about her, you can always reach out to me in pm yay. also, the exact timeline in which boreum meets younghwa would be a few weeks after she moves into the house.

 

i was honestly divided at how her love interest story would unfold because as i was writing down her past with ethan, i ached for them to have a happy ending which i know is bad so i think that's what caused me to shift towards ethan instead of younghwa (which i know, is quite unfortunate for him because he's so nice). 

 

SCENE REQUESTS

❍ meeting her parents after a long time and finally telling them that she's come to terms with everything that has happened to her
❍ dodam dropping her off at the front door of the house and perhaps someone from the housemates either misunderstood him as her boyfriend or bugs her to introduce them to that nice-looking guy
❍ inah getting along with the group better at her first time meeting them than boreum has for weeks or months
❍ boreum having a ptsd episode
❍ more to be added.

 

PASSWORD

it's not uncommon to see boreum just nodding and calmly watching the movie without flinching or getting surprised when jumpscares or gorey scenes occur.

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seungjjang
#1
the faces in this app <3 plus angel's last mission and run ON (and start up--iseeyoumrgoodboyhanjipyeong<3) ?!? just take all the chef kisses uwu
tbhddaeng
#2
a ballerina <3___<3