I'm Alive O.o

Bonjour, friends.

'Tis I, your one and only, Aditi/Adi/ADT/stranger.

I honestly don't know why I'm writing this; it's not like you'd care, and to be fair, it's not even that important or beneficial to any of you, so if you were doing something important or if you plan on doing something far more crucial than reading this short blog of some sort, please leave before you regret wasting your time here.

You're welcome.

Anyways, life has been... something. Okay, let me be brutally honest. Everything . The pandemic was just getting under control with the supplies of the much anticipated vaccines, and now there's a new strain that has already spread to several countries. I honestly doubt when the world will return to normal. Obviously, this virus won't just disappear, but it'll kind of become a normal at some point - like all the other previous viruses and bactera from other pandemics and epidemics.

When it comes to school, everything even more. First off, I'm in year 11 - which is crazy because I didn't think I'd grow up so fast - and I'm a few months away from giving what is probably the biggest exams of my life so far, which will more or less decide my future because I'm not talented and there's no other career I can drive towards (at least I can't think of any), so I have to push forward with my academics and hopefully do well. Adding on, the syllabus - oh my God, the damn syllabus. We have so much to complete at school, and our school has this system where you can either opt for complete distanced-learning, or go for blended-learning; some students go to school one day, and the others go on the next day, and it just alternates (while majority chose distanced-learning, so they attend classes in the comfort of their homes) and that just makes this whole education method impossible! My teachers have to clarify doubts of the students online, and then give attention to those at school, and then tackle the issues of network connections, and follow the protocols of taking attendace and ensuring our cameras are on and so much more. I have my mocks coming up by the end of February, and I can assure you - might as well just bet my life on it - that we will definitely not be able to cover all the topics that are left (especially chemistry and biology), which means that I'll have to self-study and watch videos and learn everything myself (because I don't want to get a tutor amid the crisis, and it's also weird because I've never attended any tuition before and I can't exactly adjust to the idea of it) and now I'm stressed and in pain - as is everyone else.

I apologise for the long sentences with breaks in between. Also, this is kind of a rant, so if you're still here, leave.

You're welcome.

Alright, what else? Oh, so some of my classmates and I decided to do an online reading club or whatever, as requested by our supervisor (she's very picky, by the way) and of course, even though she didn't want us to go overboard, we went overboard. Haha. Yes. Now we have a Discord server, in which there are mostly a bunch of innocent, youthful little 7th and 8th year students (some of which are so very enthusiastic and mayhaps I have a favourite...). We did a few of these meetings during December, but now we're all so busy with school and work and projects (enterprise students are suffering - I don't take enterprise, yay) and we've kind of neglected the Discord server. Oh, I can't share the link for security and school-protocol purposes by the way. Anyways, so yeah, that's just sitting there and the kids are probably waiting for an announcement but I refuse to face my fear. Also, with my classmates and I - I'm gonna call ourselves the Literary Club (because that's what we're called unfortunately) - being a little crazy, we decided to create a termly magazine for the girls section (my school divided boys and girls into different buildings from year 5 onwards) and we were supposed to release it by the first week of January, but my poor friend - who takes enterprise - is stuck with work and is unable to edit.

I can't edit.

So, that brings me to the last part of this blog - rant - which is about my long forgotten stories. What have I been doing lately? I've been studying, that's what. But I also tried to sneakily edit my story during classes (when the teacher's taking attendance or breaking up with lags). I've actually mentioned this before; I want to refurbish all my past stories (spelling, grammar, changing a few dialogues that just seem out of place or super cringe-worthy) before I post any new story. I have one story, fully written and completed, in draft, but I'll have to proofread it once more and also adjust the layout. Here's what happened. So, I initially posted all the chapters here in draft because one of my flash drives was being problematic - it made my laptop restart. I tried several solutions and ultimately decided to remove the files and put them to my drive, but for some odd reason, I put the drafted story here instead of the drive, and after several attempts at trying to fix my laptop (knowing that the files weren't the problem), I ultimately reset the laptop and also got the hardware cleaned. Once I got my laptop back, I copied the drafted story back into a document and it was a mess - a big mess - in the sense that all my paragraph breaks and alignments were completely ruined. So, I'll have to work on that before I post it.

Yes, I'm still stuck with rewriting my older stories, and I'm so sorry both to my readers and to myself, because oh my God, I want to get this over with as soon as possible, but at this rate, I suppose I'll only get more free time after June (when my IGCSE exams end, if we have it in the first place).

And that's all. I can't believe you're still reading this, but thank you for listening to me rant about life. I'm honestly really freaked out and stressed, and my friends are just as worried, and we're all just trying to calm ourselves and support one another, but really there's only so much we can do.

To anyone who's feeling bummed, don't worry. We're all get through this together. It was nice pouring this all out. Now, if you'll excuse me, I'll go have dinner. Have a great day or night, fellow homo sapiens.

You're welcome.

- Adi <3

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