Personality

 

"but with the scandal of pd48, won't it just follow her? will it not be considered career-suicide for the remaining girls to debut with her?" youngsun questions just as he peels open in the file within his grasp, his eyes skimming the contents with careful consideration, his mind already settled on a decision with or without the staff's opinions.
   

🦗 antecedently, she had been considered sufficient enough for the "triple threat" title amongst the trainee pool of circle media for she did not succeed in just one category but all; not one speciality but three. the instructors and vocal coaches were always impressed by her ability to improve without so much coaching, that they often used her as "an example" for the others to copy.

History

 

pre-trainee: nam youngae was made to rip the banner from the store front of her mother's laundromat window, the advertisement blocking much more important ads such as miss shin's #1 homemade kimchi or hwang yura's private piano lessons. besides, who really paid any mind to an ad about some measily competition show that only lazy, non-studious kids would dare to participate in. idol school auditions, it read and youngae being the curious person that she is, folded up the banner and slipped it into her jean's pocket for later investigation. of course, she couldn't let her mother know of her plans to research as she'd never been interested in the entertainment world, spewing her annoyance for the entire industry instead.

"once a parent allows their child to leave, they never come back. they act as if the ones who birthed them life never existed. it's sickening and all the more ridiculous."

still, to dance and sing on a stage for thousands always seemed appealing to the younger nam youngae. if anything, it's all she could ever think of doing whenever a nosy adult braved the guts to ask what she wanted to do with her life because "college". so, that very night with the tablet that her mother got at half price and on sale down at the local market, youngae searched up the show's locations for auditioning close to busan. she could sign up as an "independent trainee" and participate so long as she managed to pass the audition round.

what could it hurt? she could fail or she could pass, regardless how could she ever know if she didn't try? 

nam youngae was co-managing the dance team at school along with her friend, jinah, maintaing her spot on the school's choir and even attended a few k-pop concerts without her mother's knowledge so participating in idol school would just add onto her long résumé of endeavors. the show would be broadcasted nationally but youngae's mother was considered a technophobe of the sorts and the only eletronics she ever preferred to deal with was cash registers, washing machines and dryers. television and touchscreen smartphones were her least favorite gadgets.

and so, she went, she auditioned and she passed but so did the exhaustion of making excuses for her many weeks' absences from home. she was supposed to start studying for the college exam and she would have to take a leave of absence from her part-time job at the laundromat but perhaps she could always ask jinah if she could fill in. she could also mention that she missed the twins youngwoo and youngseo for that matter and pretend to visit them in seoul despite their mother's frustration with the two of them joining the entertainment world themselves.

still, youngae would actually betray her mother's weariness for the industry in a heartbeat, for the chance to taste the limelight.

youngseo and youngwoo had gone before her, their talents well received and accepted and yet, youngae had no such backing like a company or a manager even.

because nam youngae would be baring herself to the country, no formal training without fancy gimmicks and just pure blood, sweat and tears (figuratively). 

idol school turned out to be gruesome, challenging and youngae helplessly stood by as girl after girl was voted off by the votes casted online by citizens around the world and yet, youngae barely paid the votes any mind.

she happend to be there for a good time.

youngae's main focus was to gain exposure and experience all while attracting some to herself which allowed her to stay on much longer than others. she knew she could be voted off any moment but at least it would feel worth it. and then, her position at 15 was no longer deemed satisfactory and she was booted. she returned to the dorms, packed up her belongings and was made to wait at the terminal for youngseo to retrieve her. 

a month later, a caller from an unknown number appeared on youngae's screen and believing what was being spewed on the other line, she quickly hung up and phoned her siblings on a three-way connect.

"circle media?" youngwoo had repeated as his voice echoed in the large space of the dancing studio. "they produced the groups riot and omni, right?"

"correct," youngseo confirmed as she pondered over the information shared to her by her younger sibling. "they're a pretty sound company, headed by kim sungwon and everyone likes sungwon. i don't have a connection in cm except i see minji sunbae from time to time."

"i think you should go for it," the latter offered up, his teammates getting more rambuncious by the second. "and if you have a hard time breaking the news to mom, we will talk to her for you. she's upset because we can't visit as much but trust me when i say this, youngseo and i plan to support her once i debut so she doesn't have to work at the laundromat for the rest of her life."

trainee: arriving to circle media, the staff greeted her kindly, making sure to introduce her to those she would closely work with and pointing out the fact that she was sought after because of her appearance on idol school. to them, she had performed impressively well for an independent trainee and secretly, that made her all the more popular amongst the trainee pool.

girls and boys alike would invite her to eat lunch with them or to train after classes. they would even invite her to the dorms before curfew just to hang out or make a trip to the nearest convenient store for snacks. despite being one of the older trainees, youngae was still treated with much respect and not once did she have to worry about never debuting because of her age. and then she met the vice president, lee sungmin who happend to oversee her development over the couple of years she had been under cm.

"it is finally nice to meet you, nam youngae." he had greeted her when she'd entered his office, a bright smile etched across his seemingly handsome face. "i have been a fan of you since idol school."

"well thank you so much for that, sir." youngae thanked him with a cute smile of her own, easily matching the energy he was giving off. "it is a pleasure to make your acquaintance."

"miss nam, i called you here because i think you'll do well to participate in another survival show...one you would be quite familiar with." ushering the younger woman over, sungmin then passes her a banner to look over. "produce 48 are looking for trainees to compete as a joint project between japan and korea and i think with your experience, you'd be an awesome fit."

"me? i mean, when i was on idol school before, i did have a lot of fun...i just didn't think i'd have another chance to do it again."

"and this time, even more people will be interested in learning about you because not only did you participate years prior but now you're under a company, you're no longer an independent participant and if you do or don't make it into the final line-up, you're guarantee to debut here as well but i forsee no issues of you making it if i'm frank."

the Idol: aster 애스터
talent twin: lee sian of idol school/produce48. or if you want a more proper talent twin: jooe.
future aspirations: youngae would like to try debuting in a sub-unit, or solo once the scandal blows over more. she'd also like to not be associate with the scandal and visibly pauses or cringes if she's asked about it so, she'd love to get over that. if sub-unit or soloist is not in her future, she may prefer to try the acting route later on.

 

they used to a pretty tight-knit family after and more so after the death of their father but the distance between them all grew once all the children chose to pursue careers in the entertainment industry. it started with youngseo not being able to return home as often then youngwoo's disapproving absence and then youngae appearing on television (although she did not think her mother ever knew)  that has put a strain on their relationships. little does solbi know, her family plans to buy her a house once their careers peak and have her resting for the rest of her life.

kim jinah, best friend since childhood.
jinah has remained one of youngae's good friends since childhood. she has no interest in pursuing a career in entertainment but rather medical. she is currently a nursing student at a very small medical facility in jeju island where her own family was from before relocating to busan. she is also a closet hopeless romantic and enjoys the drama that comes with pop culture. her favorite groups consist of omni, the boyz, sistar and now coterie. she also relishes in youngae's rants about her manager because she is sure that they have feelings for one another but she'd never admit that out loud for the sake of youngae's mentality...however, that doesn't mean she can resist teasing.

lee sungmin, former vice president of cm.
she trusted sungmin far too easily in the beginning, his words full of ambition, promise and encouragement only for it to come out that he'd tried to manipulate her victory in produce 48. truthfully, youngae wishes she had fully working intuition and never got excited but she didn't and now the scandal will follow her too. despite it all, she cringes when she hears the guy's name but also reads the updates of his trial whenever her schedule permits her to.

kim sungwon, current president of cm.
youngae is always impressed by sungwon's ability to empathize and not treat the lot of them like cash pigs but humans instead. he has also admitted to backing her chance to debut because simply, she deserved to. despite the scandals, despite sungmin's screw up, he still wants to see youngae thrive and that makes her all the more admired by him. now, if only his nephew wasn't a pain up her .

love Interest

 

every second, hosung would make sure to scold or correct youngae, his vision for an idol taking importance over what his very uncle thought that an idol should perform like. confrontation would be out of the question and youngae nearly loses it when she realizes that speaking out against him could sever her chances of debuting. not when sungwon personally sought her out for the chance in a life time despite the scandal.

ryu hosung is nothing short of overbearing, demanding, critical and hot.

youngae face palms herself as the very memory she has kept buried for so long, presents itself. the time that it was only the two of them within the confines of the company van, her migraine intensifying by the second and hosung tending to her. waves of nausea crashing into her, she didn't miss the tender glances he sent her.

and all because hosung sent her those worried looks while searching up pain medications that could diminish the pain.

all because he sent her that reassuring simper, the pads of his fingers touching all over her forehead and temples, asking if the pain had subsided at all since the set assistant offered up tylenol to him.

perhaps prince hosung isn't as haughty or perhaps he was just doing his job. regardless, youngae tucks the memory back into the folds of her mind, ignoring the way her heart hammered against her chest whenever his concerned face rudely interrupts her mundane activities.

Details

 

age: 22.
dob: 15/03/1998.
birthplace + hometown: busan, south korea.
nationality: (south) korean.
faceclaim:
weme's 엘리.

Trivia

 

🦗 tries to avoid satoori but will do it to annoy her manager at no cost.

🦗 aeseuteo or aster derives from the -ae part of her name and her like for flowers. she also wanted to rid herself of her senior citizen sounding name.

🦗 if a superlative was to be chosen for youngae, it would be "most likely to never shut up" or "most likely to talk your head off".

🦗 prefers to ride around in a van or car because public transportation 
✨scares✨ her and she does hold a driver's license.

🦗 she's never been in "love love". 

🦗 she doesn't feel as confident as she may have felt before the scandal but she works very hard to hide that from the others. 

🦗 prefers to dye her hair teal, purple, red or just black. she's been teal since appearing on produce 48 and was red before on idol school. 

Final Thoughts

 

 

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