xx to my friend Gyuramhyu xx

Dear Shon,

 

You are a stupid son of a . You are an . You are a brat. But, you're my son of a , you're my , and you're my stupid annoying brat. You had covered up for me when I had the biggest secret. You annoyed me to death and bullied me to the deepest parts of the earth, but I wouldn't have it any other way. How I wish I could see your name calling me again on my phone asking if you could crash by my bunks. How I wish I could see you ing about my ings s (which aren't really graphic, thank you very much.) So many How I wish... But I know it'll never come true again. We had plans you stupid brat, we were supposed to write EunHae stories together - but we both got busy. We were supposed to visit Mommy Love on your birthday because I promised you that stupid seafood bilao. We were supposed to travel to the US with dbsj0001 to live with Morgan and grab burgers with Megan. What happened, you ing brat? Why did you leave me, us? You could've talked to us. You could've shared your feelings! But no, you just had do it. You made a ing permanent solution to a ing temporary problem. I called you. So many times, why didn't you pick up? I texted you, I even called your mom and she said 'you were asleep.' suddenly hours later your mom called in and told me she couldn't wake you up. My blood ran cold as I called out an ambulance as I drove back to you and your mom's house. My heart was stumped when I saw your body lifeless. No rise and fall of the chest. I hear Jeanne sobbing in the background but I wanted to save you. Your hands were so cold and your lips were already dried out. I kept pumping oxygen in to you. Asking God if He could just be a bit forgiving and give you back your life, but... It was too late. You were gone. In a blink on an eye... You were gone. I wish I went to you sooner. I wish I saw the signs. I wish... you were still here with us today. 

 

Good bye, my Donghae. My friend. My idiot. 

— s h o n • g y u —

 

 

(Let me sleep in your bed, when I get back to Manila okay?)

 

 

it just has to hurt and hurt and hurt and hurt before you can be okay again. -an.

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gyuramhyu
#1
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daniel227
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we can't change what happened now don't we, uwu? but we knew he loved you,he loved us... you did your best being his ally for too long just we need to think now that he's safe and in peace now... and remember always that i am here, we are here for you, for us... and let us make shon proud of us because of him, we will grow both more stronger...

I'll cry with you, I'll laugh with you and don't worry I'll read your s with all my heart...