Might Deactivate Soon.

[edited 10/21/2020]

I will let time take it's course. If I'm not here then I am not. I thought about it and perhaps my stories can stay while I'm gone.

Hello guys. It has been a while, or at least for me it has felt like a long time. This blogpost might be a little long, or maybe it won’t be. I’ll see as I type.

I’ve said this before, but I really think I don’t have an audience in this space anymore, and that’s fine with me, but I really want to put it into words so I goes to record. I’ve been thinking about the future of my account TaeminieAppa in this site a lot and ultimately, I am unsure of what to do with it.

I no longer write. I’m happy with how I am right now as a reader and not a content creator and it was something I was fighting against. But I’ve come to terms with it and it makes me happy to just be part of the audience instead of putting out fics. That’s fine for me.

I’ve been here since 2013, basically since my start as a fan of shinee and for me that’s a long time. I’ve made lots of mistakes in my life, and I’ve grown a lot too. I’ve met a lot of people, and I’ve forgotten others too. That’s how life goes. Beginnings and endings.

I think the time for me to deactivate, or put all my stories on draft will come soon and it pains me a little, because I know what it feels to like a story and not be able to read it anymore because it’s not available. But for some reason, it scares me to leave them out there while I’m barely here. People are scary, and it might be irrational, but I’ve been trying to let go of my username for the very same thing. People copying or translating my stories without my permission is something that scares me. I know it sometimes comes out of love (the translating part) but I’m not comfortable with it.

As I said, I was very young when I started writing, and I made mistakes and I grew with my stories. It’s not something I want people copying or suddenly translating, because there are things I can’t read myself for personal reasons. I wrote by experience most times, and there’s things I want to let go of.

I don’t want to make myself look like a “big” writer, because I am not and I am cool with that. I write for me and to be honest I’ve re-read all my fics because I like them a lot. But at least on Wattpad I have a “bigger” audience and honestly Wattpad itself is terrifying. I want out LOL!

So for the meantime, I’m seriously thinking about the future of my stories in both Asianfanfics and Wattpad, and even the few I’ve posted on Ao3. I’m not a famous author so I am hoping not many people will be sad by this news. And if you are… my apologies. I don’t know what else to do.

I’m very grateful for all the years here and the people I’ve met through writing 2min. I know some of us have gone to different paths, but I remember you with lots of love still.

Maknae is signing out, peace! <3

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KaihleeLo #1 Oct 11, 2020 08:58:07

Hello! Am just browsing the blog section and saw your blog. My advice to you would be, if you're afraid of plagiarism and unapproved translations then keep your stories up but check the "Block Text Selection and Right-Clicks" box. I can't speak for Wattpad and Ao3 but on AFF , writers do have that option. So unless someone is VERY determined and devoted to stealing your work, they'll have to type everything you've typed out word from word and 99% of people wouldn't do that. I'm happy and proud of you for being happy with what you have and where you are, but never settle for less :) Good luck on here and out there and stay safe~

fashionchik91 #2 Sep 30, 2020 19:59:37

Just thought I would pop in since I had the same feelings as you 3 years ago. I just went on a hiatus for a break, but during the pandemic I started to miss writing. I used to be extremely active on here popping out to many stories (that I could not keep track of).

My advise is do what is best for you.

Mahima25 #3 Sep 29, 2020 17:04:37

Hey !!! I don’t think my Opinion would make a difference since u have made u up ur mind ...but I would say pls don’t delete it ...u don’t have to be a big author or famous author ...but sometimes without u urself realising ...ur stories are an escape from reality to someone out there and that’s a huge achievement by itself ...I would kindly request u not to delete it ...plsss

gwiboonivy #4 Sep 28, 2020 18:15:04

Hey!

As soon as I saw the notification I clicked on it ssso quickly because I misses you a lot!!

I..I really don't want to tell you what to do, you have your own life and your own feelings about this. I just want to let you know that it'd be a huge pain for me, I often read your fics just to..feel that particular feeling only you can create. You characterization and writing feel so homely to the heart and plesant to the brain, you are and you will aalways always always be one fo my favourite authors and people on here. I inderstamd how you feel but even though you have alla that negativty srrounding your account, think of all the positivoty and joy it brings to other people. Think of the mew SHINee fan coming across your stories (which will happen because you ARE famous here!! I get asked to recommend fics very often and I have not talked to a single user who hadn't already read and loved your stories) if they won't be out there there will be something missing. You write family like no one else. You writr love like no one else. You write fear like no one else. You are creative like no one else. Someone one day will think of a fic where the pregnant one is nauseous and emetophobic but they won't have the joy and comofrt to read your story. One fay someone will think of fighting, they will consider how useless it is to hold a grudge with your loved one, to be so mad you don't listen. To be so mad you miss the big picture. And they will remember about your story. And read it again. And still get angry along with them and still get scared when the earthquake happens amd arill fear for minho amd taemin's life. Someone will miss jonghyun so much. They'll think of what a good father, what a great great uncle he would have been. They'll think of Jonghyun spoiling SHINee's babies like no tomorrow. Or maybe they'll become aunties amd uncles ans they'll qant to feel close to their loved jjong. And they will read your fic. Your warm, painful but soso comofrting writing. Someone will have a bad expirience with a teacher amd they will read about that with you. Someone will have the burning desire to get a dog amd they will feel that with you. Someone will go through an instense baby fever and you'll hold their hands through that. Someone will feel so anxious and alone. And you'll let them know they are not. Your writing touched everyone's heart and it's something i'd miss if i hadn't read it, something I'll miss if i won't be able to read it anymore. I bet there's a lot of peoppe still trying to figure out your name from that perfume. I love you, my friends love you and jyst...so many people here have to keep those amazing feelings as close as they can.. i've been with you for years and you are a presence none of us can be without. I guarantee that.

Again, I don't want you to feel obligated to do anything but I truly needed to let this out

Please let us know

I apologize for the typos and I'm giving you a big big big virtual hug. I hope everything's okay